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Midnight 

2011-09-22T00:57:00.001+08:00

It is just so weird.
Found a black cat under my blk few weeks back n I took pity of her. She was limping. Maybe the injury was because she was ran over by a car...
Days passed n her back legs grew stronger. She was beginning to walk normally.
No matter how u bath her she still stinks. Y? Cos she can't control her bladder. Maybe due to her organs which is damaged. N yes I have never seen her pee nor shit normally. Anyways, I grew attached to her. Every night I will meet her. Just to play with her n she is one freaking kaypo cat. No doubt she still a teen.
But what happen today aches me. My sister called when I just finish my movie. I was told that she was being swept down the stairs by an auntie. Not sure from which floor. When my sister asked why must that auntie treat her this way, that auntie just said that bluntly that she was smelly.
My sister asked her which floor was she staying at she claims level 14...
How can she be so cruel?
Doesn't she have feeling?
It just an injured cat trying to survive in this world right?
I rushed from city hall to home just to see her. U don't wanna see her in that condition. U will feel helpless. Well I did! My heart aches so much to see her in pain. Lying down on the grass n growling in pain. I totally pity her. I felt useless cos I wasn't of much help. I didn't know what to do.. I told my sister to call SPCA. She was growling in pain.
I just seat beside her n talk to her. I felt like a weirdo but who cares. I just want her to know that I care.
So that SPCA guy came. The first question 'will she be put to sleep?' he said most likely. He advised me to monitor. If she is not getting any better in three days call them again.
All I wanna do is not to make her suffer. I think it's so unfair for her!
But life is never fair.
Anyways I apologized n said I will monitor n hoping that she will get better.. N all this while when that SPCA guy was here she was walking. Moving around pretending that she's okay. I think she knew.
So she still here. Lying down. Still in pain. I'm just hope that she will recover soon.
Midnight I love you.

when i gave up, u came along.....

2011-04-11T06:06:00.000+08:00

I don't believe that good guys exist.
I don't believe that I deserve a good guy.
I don't believe that I can speak in Bahasa.
I don't believe that is taking place right now....
Yup.

a lot of questions building up in my mind. y me?
y he wants to be friends with me?
y is he friendly to my friends? y is he so down to earth? everyone seems to click well with him... I think. he's uber sweet and nice.

I thought it was a dream but no...
still remember the first day I saw him.
well I was late but he wasn't mad.
he was so nice that I felt so out of place... like I wasn't myself. yes. I was shy... uh-huh! believe it not. Q was shy!!! hmmm....
not only that he was so friendly that I feel so comfy with him. :)))
then on our first 'call' date he met my friends. Fad n Syima...
hmmm.. well tt sounds like a wrong move but he wasn't awkward. Fad bullied him which I did find it a lil rude but he wasn't mad or anything like I imagine... scary but true.
so was he pretending? I doubt it cos I feel like he was so sincere... I maybe wrong but yar..

after fad left, left Syima n F. me n Didi
we sort of got into a double date kind of thing. n surprisingly the guys talk!! gosh..
-__-''

a lot of questions running in my mind but i'm not trying to think about them. i'm just gonna stop those paranoid feeling n hang loose.
yes.
I will put my guards down. send my whole army for a long holiday. go with the flow n take a risk. :)
afterall, u never know what is in store for u u til u tried right?
moreover I realized that I have always put my guards on ready mode to prevent me from getting hurt.
what is love without hurt?
'love hurts'
u have to risk urself. when was the last time I do that?
seriously I forgot how it feels like to be heart broken. :)

before anything...
I apologize if he didn't keep his promise. I barely know him... Just a reminder not to hope too much pls.

23 more days to quarter of a century... -_-''

2011-04-07T14:37:00.002+08:00

life's good so far.
life as single...
yeah!

I was complaining but now, i 'm actually loving it. ♥
no curfews, no daily reports, no unnecessary arguments, no heartbreaks.. but can't deny the fact tt I do felt lonely. Still I don't mind it all...
maybe I wasn't even ready for all this love shit. nahhh... not ready.
so love will be put aside for now. However i do wanna bitch fit about certain issues...

okay remember Papi?
ya. match make from heaven shit!!
hahhahahaha
anyways, the longer i know him the longer i realized that he is my mirror.
he is so my opposite n we r always on a diff page. yup i realized that too!
He's of my ideal height 175. botak. tattoos[bad boy image] aww... *orgasms*
but personality as i got to know him.. nahh! a total big O!
a total mat in denial... WTF!!!

I just got tired. to know guys. start all over... intro. likes. dislikes. i'm doing the same. watching movies. only diff movies la.. duhh!

watever happens shall happen.... da give up. lol. give up! give up!!! haha

current obsession: Green Tea Machiato. All thanks to Syima...

good morning all....

2011-03-19T06:21:00.001+08:00

seriously, I this blog is usually updated about guys. lmfao..

let's talk about them! yeah...

let's begin...

Mat Rock. I really think the issues ain't about me. it's about him... seriously. I drop hints like I liked him. no respond. I told him i'm dating other guys. no respond. well he kpo la wanna know details. not because he's interested but because he's just plain kpo. duhh... then everytime whenever we met n when he send me back, he will gimme a hug without fail... the hug is no longer as warm as last time. became like a norm friend hug. u get what I mean right?

that's Mat Rock for u guys....

then I have been on several boring, useless dates...
none of them are really into dating dating.. but most seems like wanna have fun. okay. my type of fun is different. I wanna have fun like lots of laughters, silly craps, random stuff. them? sex, sex, sex! annoying? very much...
I guessed guys will always be guys. I never blame them. it's okay if they wanna have fun. seriously. up to them but as long as you r single. not married guys... isk! wtf r u thinking?
u wanna have fun go ahead. with your wife tt is. not some other girls... isk! then y get married in the first place? right?

true enough that guys can never be satisfied with one. so they cheat. if their wife cheat then the husband will get mad then curse and swear and throw a bitch fit.
when the husband cheat, he expect the wife to give him another chance.
so it's fair for guys? since when!!!
well life is never fair to begin with... true enough? ;)

enough about cheating partners.

so, there's this bad boy that currently i'm in contact with.

we are fated! lol.. cos his nick is Papi. *griiiinnnsssss*

shall not mention him too much cos we have yet to go on a date. hmmm...

speaking of date. I don't think I ever been on an official date with Mat Rock! lol

that's for now.

pee.ass: no luck in job hunting..

people still talk..

2011-03-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

years have past.
whatever u have done wrong in ur past doesn't means that u r changed person now; even if u did changed.
what u r in the past will remain in the future.
people won't change.
their attitude will remain the same.
people who tried to change don't bother cos others won't see that u tried.
oh wait. u didn't try hard enough.

whatever it is, the message i'm trying to convey here is...
others still think that you are the worthless person back then and now.
get the picture??

I feel sad for you though.

Now back to job hunting. nothing much. been to interviews. got a job but was forced to decline that job. wow! best gitu kan... pfft.
im turning 25 next month. not sure if I have mood for celebration.

frankly, I hate my birthday. cos my birthday never fails to upset me.. every birthday. :)

2011-03-09T07:09:00.000+08:00

if only life is that easy,
everything is all clearly lined up for u.
u can see that what will happens if u choose a or b
u can see ur fate
u understand what i'm trying to say right?

anyways, job hunting sucks big time. they never get back to you at all!
never..
I envy those who got job interviews easily n change job with no difficulty at all. how the hell they do that??
annoying much

ohhh btw, my parents will have the last say whether should I take up the job offer or not.
hmmm

yes. it's tt troublesome.

this week will b a freaking long weekend.
friday will b yantao's birthday
saturday will b wak's engagement
sunday will b family gathering at nenek's place
so, it is only right for u to starve till friday!
trust me...
hahahahaha

happy v day

2011-02-13T06:21:00.001+08:00

as usual, gonna spend my vdae ermm alone? lol
anyways I normally celebrate with friends. heh. so yar...

btw I stopped hoping.
yup yup. officially didn't text him since monday [07/02]
it's not tt difficult. just have to discipline one's self n bring ur ego self on board. anyways, I realised tt I no longer have tt feelings anymore. surprisingly it's gone. hmmm weird but true.

Dearest Hair,
pls b gd n grow faster k? so I can win the bet n ave a trim asap. I love u very much. please b kind.
tyvm.

love,
bitchy

no luck in work again. haiz.

so many plans in mind.
everybody is slowly changing.
we r all growing up.

Dear Keeyu
stop hoping. just stop. don't u get it? love will nvr b by ur side. u will have to sacrifice ur friends in order to have a bf. surely u don't wanna do tt right? tt will nvr happen so just stop dreaming n face reality. u will never fall in love ever again.
love,
me

Taurus 2011 horoscope and 2011 Taurus Astrology

2011-01-23T07:13:00.000+08:00

Just check what YEAR 2011 holds for me!!

This New Year 2011 starts for you with good news. Some of the Taurus zodiac sign born can expect a promotion or betterment could come as a gift. You'll be able to earn much this year. Long trips will be less while short journeys could be many. Askganesha Astrologer predicts that new contacts will be made which will prove to be useful throughout the year 2011. Taurus sun sign born would display courageous behavior at the right time. Astrologer says that ego problems might creep in with your friend or relatives. Most of your ambitious plans are likely to be executed. Your image will enhance and a new glow would shine. Askganesha Astrologer reminds that some of your plans may not give desired results due to unavoidable circumstances and also enemies and rivals will try to overpower you. The astrologer predicts that it will be a good time for the students for they may succeed in any competition and contest. Taurus zodiac sign born are likely to be a little self-centered. You will do something spectacular to add to your position and awe. You would remain much healthy and enthusiastically devoted to your work.

Love and Relationships Horoscope Taurus 2011
Love is the essential part of life of the Taurus sun sign born. The Askganesha Astrologer predicts that the year 2011 is a great year for developing friendships and put companionship and emotional compatibility before sexual chemistry. Taurus zodiac sign born will have more stability and less trouble in their love and sex life. Those already in a relationship should still enjoy the intimate side of your relationship. Taurus sun sign born’s family members might oppose decision of remarriage or a new relationship. A cautious approach will benefit you on the love front. Askganesha Astrologer suggests that if a down-to-earth approach is kept in romance it is likely to bring successful results. Try to change your behavior to maintain harmony in the relationship. You must share with your partner all your inner feelings and desire for seeking spiritual enlightenment. Astrologer predicts that there are some chances to have misunderstandings with your partner, it might surface during July and September. Therefore, try to handle your relationship with love and care. Remember every person couldn't be your friend, so better judge accordingly. Extremely supportive partner would help in withering away your troubles. Taurus zodiac sign born are advised to avoid confrontation with partner at romantic front. In the month of September and December emotionally you will not be very stable, therefore be cautious how you behave and say things in front of others. If you are in falling in deep love with your friend then there will be good chance to marry him/her in the month of October and November. If Taurus sun sign born are not happy in their personal life, then problems may seem especially pressing at this time. So try to care your partner in this year 2011

it's hard

2011-01-20T03:03:00.002+08:00

I replied his text...
only to realise that i'm not suppose to when it has been sent.

I answered his call...
n felt guilty that I talk to him n feeling happy.

not trying hard enough.. try harder Q!!

this sucks!

it's hard

2011-01-20T03:03:00.000+08:00

I replied his text...
only to realise that i'm suppose to when it has been sent.

I answered his call...
n felt guilty that I talk to him n feeling happy.

not trying hard enough.. try harder Q!!

this sucks!

2011; the year of the rabbit

2011-01-18T02:25:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year!
lol well late for a few day... no no weeks

glad that it's a new year. new beginning, new everything

I have set some resolutions but kept to myself. :) n we will see if I hit on them.. some of them by end of the year?

I have started a new job. back with singpost. yes! literally for the third time... lol
anyway work is okay not so bad. catching up. more to learn! seriously... I didn't make any frens at work. yup! not a sgl fren. but I only know there's only one mly girl who smoke but I think she's social. haha

enough about work. I realised I have been really short tempered lately. n that's bad bad bad.
yes. I can lose my cool damn easy nowadays. i'm still controlling... hopefully I won't snap. gosh!
maybe due to bottling up much issues to myself? I think... I mean it's best tt way. I so need a diary!!

relationship still single. no longer hoping for anything. nothing at all.
cos I will get paranoid.
I will think too much.
I will freak myself.
I will just go crazy...
n harm the other party.
so, I have decided.
I will stop everything.
not hoping in any ways.
and fade out of those guys life.
will take one step at a time.

step one, save their Name in the 'X' list.
step 2, ignore their messages.
step 3, dont answer their call....
it will take time but yeah, I know I can do this. for the safety of my heart n others. :)

however, I cnt wait for next week. hopefully the date will still be on with an old pap pap. lol just to catch up on things n stuff :)

ohhh 21st Kay's released. I can't wait!!! lol

that's all for now. pleasant dreams loves

pee.ass: they said if u love the person let them go. if they come back u r meant to be. I think tt's bullshit! lol

2010-12-22T06:36:00.000+08:00

pes·si·mism (ps-mzm)
n.
1. A tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable or to take the gloomiest possible view: "We have seen too much defeatism, too much pessimism, too much of a negative approach" (Margo Jones).
2. The doctrine or belief that this is the worst of all possible worlds and that all things ultimately tend toward evil.
3. The doctrine or belief that the evil in the world outweighs the good.
[French pessimisme (on the model of optimisme, optimism), from Latin pessimus, worst; see ped- in Indo-European roots.]
pessi·mist n.
pessi·mistic adj.
pessi·misti·cal·ly adv.

op·ti·mist (pt-mst)
n.
1. One who usually expects a favorable outcome.
2. A believer in philosophical optimism.

2010-12-16T02:36:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to my dearest friend Md Khairul Fadly. :) finally u r 68.. lol

i'm giving up. I no longer wanna hope nor wait. I got tired. i'm no longer m interested in the game of love. don't ask me why, I guess I never want it all along. It was my mistake... :)

i'm happy being alone. I got used to that. i'm loving every second of it....

army's out. Fad Syima n Netty on standby....

darling...

2010-12-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

u r annoying
u r irritating
u r a pest
u love to talk back
u r prettier
u r smarter
u r cuter
u r fairer
u r dadday's lil girl
u get what u wants
mess my bed
u r not as creative
u sucks at drawing
u have lots of acquaintance
BUT
despite all that,
u r my lil sister.
my only lil sister to be exact.
all the fights, boxing match, arguments, etc. I love you deeply n never once I regret having a lil sister like u.
u helped me through bad times.
u kept my darkest secret.
u never quit being my lil sister.
I thanked God to gimme a lil sister, that's you!

No wonder I never changed ur name in my phonebook for years.....
u r my only Darling.

a prayer

2010-12-09T22:19:00.003+08:00

Dear God,
Let me get a job soon! I'm hating bumming. I need to b doing something.. Seriously. Can u tell those people whom i sent resumes to gimme a call soon? Just that i wish for. Thank you. I love you. =)

one by one... they are coming back.... i swear!

2010-11-30T05:08:00.000+08:00

2010 is coming to n end. n seriously i've been through good n bad even worst day in this year.
terserempak with EddyKuSyg at bazaar n clearly he still hold grudges that I ask for the break. Loser!
Amy world about his case.
Myzan tried to befriend me again n wanted to reconcile. wth!
Burn went missing n came back after a few months..
those r whom I can recall at this point of time.

Aug was a shit mnth. no job. got into trouble. big time!

October. worst! i'm hating the 18th n 19th. god! I never felt so scared before in my entire life. seriously. sometimes when I tot about it I just regret. there were signs but I ignore them. well I asked for it right? so I can't blame anyone except myself. haizz, but I still feel it should have been my entire fault. :(

coming end jan me gg to b 3yrs single! wohooo..... believe it or nt.

currently i'm seeing Mat Rock. he makes me happy. uh-huh! not expecting much la. no no not dating... just lepak lepak. heh! ohh depan org very guy eh..... haha!

anyways, one thing for sure i'm happy to have my dolls. those who have been giving me support, love, hope, company, motivation, fun, etc. u know who u r... a big thank u from me. =)

the weather is so good to fall asleep........ =)

2010-10-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.
Edward W. Howe

Dolls Society

we r made up of 12 dolls

- Fadly aka Blow-Up Doll
- Q aka Bitchy Doll
- Nazron aka Rasta Doll
- Azieera aka Preppy Doll
- Khairul aka BB Doll
- Syima aka Seraphic Doll
- Jingwei aka Halal Nomnom Doll
- Ayiz aka Rascal Doll
- Netty aka Euphoric Doll
- Randy aka Beng Doll
- Azman aka Skinny-Lanky Doll
- Alif aka Doodle Doll

so who is in which generation.
it gonna b a bit confusion so im gonna break it down slowly....
as u know ur parents is Blow Up n Bitchy.
our parent; my in-law is Rascal.
so Rascal is our 1st generation.

Papi n Mami/Mummy/Umi/Ibu/Mak/Mama, etc will be 2nd generation

so we have our children; the 3rd genertion, who are
Preppy Rasta Seraphic Euphoric BB n not forgetting Doodle
However, our 2 kiddos are attached...
Seraphic with Halal Nom Nom
and
Euphoric with Beng
now u must be wondering how about SKL right?
well he's our neighbour. u noe like anak angkat tt kinda ting...

this part is ok.
nt so confusing.....
nw this part pay abit of attention okay?
Preppy n Seraphic has a younger bro, Luqman
however thrs a twist.
therefore, Luqman is in the nxt generation.
the 4th generation.
that includes Rania, ShaSha, Daniaa, Suci, Riyan[ni anak Ati kn!]
then there's Rashid n Harris.
wait wait
Rashid n Harris are Rascal's nephew.
so tt means tt they are Bitchy n Blow Up cousins
so tt means they r in 2nd generation.
however they r too young to even club with us so we r gonna kick them to 4th Gen.

so in the 4th Gen there are
Rania ShaSha Daniaa Suci Luqman Riyan Rashid n Harris

tt's all.
at least aku update~
haha

15 days of puasa......

2010-08-26T01:42:00.004+08:00

after being away for quite sometime idk where to start.

updating blog is always abt work family friends life.
hah! typical.
so let me start with work
got terminated.
yeah. feels like shit
total shit
y? cos raya is coming with no work = no income.
nt tt i dont wanna find new job but then the rash thingy comes along. i look like i'm having rabies. seriously. it's like one whole body. practically every where. im scratching n scratching. if only i could scratch till i bleed. haha. scars here n there.
bathing actually ease the itchiness but only for awhile.
now i'm so embarrassed to even wear short sleeve. pfft~
annoying. i thanked god tt it didn't spread to my face.
=) thank you.

it will never be the same again.
we we once so close.
without us realizing everyone's growing up... growing apart.
i can say i no longer felt part of us anymore.
sometimes we are rude to one another
i don't know about u all but sometimes i got hurt by your words.
maybe we are never meant to be together.
why are we trying so hard to keep it united?
everyone's changing right?
everyone has your own friends now.
if i were to leave silently one day,
i would apologize first.
do take care.
i will bring along the memories that we once shared.
i will treasure all that
those has been one of the best moments in life tt i had.
thank you.

you never know for how long you may live
you never know for how long he will be there
before you know it one life is lost.
even though i don't know you personally, you are being missed.
hopefully you sister wont feel so lost without you around.
you were once loved. <3

even though 18th Aug has passed my mind is never at ease.
i just want it to be over and done with.
oh God, please give me strength.

finally updating again................

2010-07-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

i fell....
i pick myself up..
i walked away.
simple?
i bumped into you again!

it was a fast one.
i fell for you almost immediately.
pfft~
but you r such a drama mama
i got annoyed at myself
one thing for sure.
i can never trust you.
i just don't know why.

i think after so long i have been single it's nice to fell again but the paranoid feeling is just so great
from paranoid to fear. it changed to desperate. . but some how i managed to dick slap myself to wake up.
i don't wanna feel so desperate. i never am. i will never be.
why should i be desperate right?

however i think i really forgot how to fall in love.
counting............in 47 more mins, i have been single for 2years 6months.
that is a freaking long time.
yes! i have never been single for so long. i have been on dates but none worked out.
i guess i just forgotten how to fall in love.
=) but me ain't complaining. why should i rush for love right?

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

The Bottom Line

One of your friends is going through some changes. Be patient while they struggle.

In Detail

You're not usually known for having much of a temper. It takes quite a lot to get you riled up, for one thing, and by the time you actually get around to expressing anger, you've realized that it's likely not worth the energy. You've got tremendous self-control, most of the time. Every once in a while, though, the dam bursts and someone ends up gored by a raging bull. That could easily happen today. Someone -- not you -- had better hire a bodyguard!

pee.ass:
it's okay to feel stoopid. you never know what was bound to happen.
it's okay to try. you never know what is the outcome.
it's okay to fell. cos i know you are strong to stand up again. =)
bottom line: you never know what is in store for you unless u try to give it a shot. life is full of trail and errors right? *hugs*

2010-07-13T23:43:00.001+08:00

i was about to update but my mind went blank.
hehehe
will update pretty soon
i promise a long post............ =)

2010-06-02T15:12:00.001+08:00

just decide to be alone for now
i will go missing
just dont find me
tc all

*hugs*

Keeyu

30th April

2010-04-22T21:55:00.001+08:00

i wan no PRESENTS
i wan no BIRTHDAY CAKE
i wan no WISHES
i wan no SMS-es
i wan no SINGING OF B'DAE SONG
i wan NOTHING TO DO WITH BIRTHDAY

thanks. Just a reminder.

you are just unfair

2010-04-18T19:20:00.003+08:00

well i dont understand.
poeple keep their distance n slowly went missing.
after that they claim tt they r the rejects.
we dissed them. we talk about them. we just hate em.

hey hello!
who is the bad people?
US! the dolls.
yes. we r the bad people we dont need you in our fucking life.
tt's why we dissed you.

ouh wait. if i continue not mentioning names maybe you might think this is for you
so let me start!

EMILIA!!
aka lala
oh wait.. the girl whom i used to work with at SEAB!
okay now u know it's you!
good
it's not tt i never welcomed you
not tt i never want you ever to be part of the dolls
not a single intention of me.
i will speck for my part!
u disappoint me!
TOTALLY!
ever since you had bf i am just happy that you are happy but you never seems to have time for me any more.
not even a sgl message excluding goodnight messages.
i WAS expecting you to come to to the 3rd anniversary but u had to helped someoned moved house.
and me finding out its a FUCKING lie!
wow!
so putting urself in my shoes what would u feel?
i never complained once tt you have no money
i nvr did.
i dunno who went wrong?
seriously.

okay another fellow
AFFYQ!
the guy who never claimed that he GAY until....
okay watever.
if u claim that we anti you get your facts right!
if u wanna have your recuperating time go for it.
i was just hoping that you will b back but instead you were drifting further n further away
i wonder. why do u seems so broke back then but you were enjoying life so much better right now.
wow! i salute you! good for you.
seriously.
hey wait.
we anti you. in what fucking way?
why do u say that?
no seriously. i wanna noe. like what is FUCKING wrong with you?
do you know that you are one of the FRAGILE GUY that i have EVER known in my entire life.
if we dont give a fuck of you.
i would have simply walked away from you
but no
i'm still here hoping that you still come back
but no
times changed i guess
if i never loved you how come you get the best bdae suprise last yr?
no one ever did that for you! i know!
why do you both assume?
i fucking hate my fucking life.
but because of the dolls love it keep me gg

both of you are the most fragile in the group.
both of you are the ones who always having a hard time.
but both of you never seems to appreciate

why do u guys assume?
why dont u wanna talk it out?
because EVERYONE IS SCARED OF Q!
bullshit!!!

let's count.....

2010-03-24T22:31:00.004+08:00

37 days to bdae

n i know that it's gonna be so fuck up.
trust me.
evry yr bdae has always been like tt.
so i wonder what is in store for this yr.

well idk what wrng but it's just not right.
i couldn't figure out what's the prob
m i having a lot of free time?

i do hope tt u don't get cheated again. u urself have alot of probs.
i know u do put others in front of u
yes u r kind. but taking a risk on the few hundred dollars when u urself is financially strained; *isk*isk* think abt it la.
if like 20, 50 bucks the hole burnt ain't so bad.

i just need to cry. like seriously.
and i have no freaking idea why =(

2010-03-19T20:06:00.002+08:00

i got new games set!
haha

okay idk y i took another cluedo!
a new chess set.. hmm thinking of giving tt away to Ayun.
and a word game.

i gt and insect bite tingy n i find it kewl! hahahahahahahah

ok gtg
chao

3 wishes

2010-03-18T23:23:00.004+08:00

ok random. i miss Eri. alot alot alot.
okay i shuddap!

let's c.
2 yrs 1 mnth 18 days sgl
=)

bdae in 1 mnth 12 days.
and damn i'm getting older!

change of job
*cross-fingers*

when u fight how long does it take for u to make up?

isit wrong to lie?

i wanna get a few new dresses.

and shoes

not forgetting bags!!

money is always an issue huh?

nxt mnth new shoe pls.

u know tt u got to b prepared for it.
when tt days comes rest assured that im there for u okay
=)

i need smth new.
something hmmm exciting...

i want you to love me for who i m.
the way i talk n how much i swear.
being bitchy and lying alot.
okay. accept it. =)

just total random.
at least im updating.
n dolls i love u, each and evry1
sorry if im bitchy.
tt's my name.

lot's of love,
Bitchy

i can b nice. seriously.

2010-02-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

anyways i'm loving this week.
long hols.
sat sun mon tues.
the holidays is so long tt i cant recall what i hve been doing lately.

ohh bee tee double eww, thanks for making me stronger.
thank you.

fri. let's party!

let's party.....!

2010-02-08T22:28:00.002+08:00

hehe. so need to party.
just some fast updates.

work.
okay. too many work. yes. i just hate the feeling that i need to rush evrrything. update evry single thing. and the fac that how much i do it never seems to end. pfft~
i just need a better paying job. like seriously.
hah!

friends.
i love my bros n dolls. enuf said.
come to think about it, i love the fact that they do know me for me.
and they do bother to get to know me.
how long do they me or how well do they know?
how well they know me matters. =)

love.
i go with the flow.
hehe. but i'm thankful. for the attention. for the concern.
for the ability to click with my frens.
n trusting me.
ty. if we r fated to b together.. IF.. i will assure that i will make it possible.
=) yes

so, i'm happy for now.

i'm glad that i can go up the stairs now.

i wanna earn more ka-ching. hehe

wait up for more to come.

pee.ass: i wanna keep all the happy memories n move on. ty. or all the fun, the understanding we once had. if i did wrong i apologize. u moved on. so had i. i'm happy with who i have now. n i love em all. so yeah. we once shared that moments n i appreciate em all. =) thank you.

*pfft.....

2010-01-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

let me remind u that it's only the 26th of the month.
yes it's only January but alot of happening.
I KNOW RIGHT!!!

i will keep it to myself till the time is right.
................................................................ i guess

** eh mak ko melayang....

2010-01-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

seriously, it's scarry....
lyk superb scarry.
i counldnt believe tt we actually ave brains to think.
n lyk think far ahead.

i'm loving this month. lyk yes. totally.
my love for the Auto6 grew deeper.
i'm lyking lyk sm1... hehe

i'll miss my colleague.
it's lyk so soon.
but yeah.. i'm happy for him n wishing the best for him. ♥

i get annoyed at evryting nowadays but THANKFULLY i'm coping well wif my emotions.

i so need a long break which includes shopping!!

i didnt realised tt i was so bitchy wen i;m having my mood swings.. haha
w8 i didn't realise i always i ave mood swings.

i'm loving coffee; my nxt bestfren to Kerbau Merah.

i'm afraid of my future.. but i'm loving the moments now ♥

i still get annoyed with grrls, especially minah2 call center for Mac! haha

i hate dust! but my desk at work is so Dusty!!!

i hate my tummy but ave yet to tried to pretend to be pregnant in the train. hahaha

i wan changes in life.
but all nd money.
i really hope my dad gets a job soon!
lyk so so soon!!!!

cos he staying at home is not bring in any income!!!
ohh bee tee double eww, by giving u xtra cash doesn't mean tt u shud splurge on more plants okay!!!

i'm missing him but i hate to admit.
i feel lyk slapping him! n just kiss him...
i longed to cuddle with him.
can u b my ant-i-dote? next to my tequila?

mari kita minum dulu~
huh?

♥ my bros.
♥ my dolls.
♥ my Mister Zookeeper.

n putting tt blardy snake beside me when i'm sleeping is nt funny at all Mister!

50h3000m__180000s ♥

2010-01-15T10:32:00.002+08:00

it's a new yr. a new start. a new evryting.
hehe

n i love the start already ♥

im lyk thankful tt i get to noe u.
wat matter most is tt u click wif me.
n u cn click wif my bros.
i dun mind ur frens.
im jux so hapi.........
at the same tym, it's scarry to ave tis feeling.
wen u noe u r so high up thr, u r expecting for evryting to fall.
*damn* full speed. drop dead.

i jux hope for the best.. ♥
hopefully....

Since 10/11/05

2009-12-31T23:59:00.002+08:00

wow~
tt long huh?
wif 571 posts ONLY!!

niwae 2009 is coming to an end.
yes. its gonna b over!
BUT
firstly i wanna say a BIG thank u to all my lovely dolls.
thanks for sticking by me.
with lots of love for each othr.
being thr for one another; emotionally n physically.
Thank You!

let's start wif....
earlier tis yr.

my hair was previously cut tis short...........
this is the beggining of the yr

no curls!!!!

too bad it didnt last.......

anywae my bdae was okay. i gt a ducky bank which Quacks evrytime i insert money!!
cute ryt....

thanks to rockstar for getting tt for me.
hehe ty pakcik!!

.

bdae was okay. i hd fun though. heh! thanks to those who spend time wif me. thanks. and gt 50 bucks frm fad for he bet i will cut my FRINGE! which i did nt. n yes my fringe is damn long. hahaha. i gt annoyed irritated by it.. but i miss it though. haha

my post bdae celebration wif lala.
haha
n i miss my shoe.
RIP!

and a short photoshoot. heh!

to watching transformers! haha.. spot the red in ayis's pic!
hahaha

shiok sendiri layan kn diri masing2 while fad was having a meeting wif cik hasnah.

goodbye sneakers. u serve me well. i really make use of u until u TEAR! hahaha....
RIP erm. Dec '09.

the Fad Jr. in making. hahahahaha

n yes ayis do scare me~

the first crazy thing tt syima dared me!! nyahahahahahahaha

Ayis i still love tis pic u noe.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha i love my shades!

i cnt help nt putting up this pic.
hahahahahahahahaha

this was affyq's advance bdae party! hahahaha

tha Khai's Gf. huh? haha

not forgetting our very famous Japanese pornstar on the podium!
hahaha

random midnight movie.

ohh.. nw i realise smth. in a cab thr can only ave 4 passengers ryt.
tis pic already ave 4 at the back. hahaha

idk who remember tis pic. but yeah~
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

heh! the switest ever guy i ever known. heh!

n the scarriest mak atok i noe~!!!

ayis's fav picture..... hahahaha i tink.

slp overs r fun.

i love ayun's Pj!

when khalq came to sg... haha kecoh-able......

the ducks r damn cute!!!

lastly. the Jr Dolls in the making!
the first tym we saw her. and nw. wow! in just a few mnths....
things change.
ppl change.
n we r getting older,
nvr younger
i dont wanna waste precious time.
i'm jux thankful wif wat i ave nw. my Dolls.
Thank You!

pee.ass: btw, most of the pics r my pics as u can see tt my hair did GROW!!
hahaha
hapi new yr all.....
xoxo Key-U!

counting dwn to 2010....

2009-12-26T17:27:00.003+08:00

few more day to the new yr.
n yes im happy.
one because i survive 2009 lots of ups n dwns.
yes. friendship is put in a test.
end of the yr, the one who stays n back me up r my true frens.
u dun go running away wen u found ur happiness n came crawling bac wen tt didnt work out.

firstly a big thank you to my biggest enemy.
for staying by me.
for being so understanding.
not onli to me but evry sgl individual one of us.
n knowing lots of stuff.
yes u r my our num1 makcik KPO!
through bad times n gd.
through silly fights n laughters
through rain n shine u were thr.
giving us hope n confidence in ourselves.
smtyms we did pretend we nvr went clubbing
but frankly we did quietly sneaked out n did wen clubbing.
haha
ty for b a true fren
for keeping us as one.
i love u n u know tt...

another is the biggy friendly guy.
the guy wif a huge funny bone.
nvr get serious abt stuff at tyms....
who evry1 adores. n u jux cant get mad at him.
being a guy with a bigger heart at tyms.
who is so slumber tt smtyms d=he doesnt even ave feelings!
wen we fight among each othr
he would b .. 'so, whr were we..'
OR continue eating lyk nuthing happen..
haha typical of him
trying to crack tings up a lil
always up to silly games n small mini venturing.
hahaha

u may b funny n all. but one thing i totally respect abt u is tt u can actually keep ur own probs within urself.
if u nvr mention abt ur family
i wud ave tot tt ur family is close to perfect!
who wud ave known ryt?
yes u r funny.
u n ur silly funny actions.
eventhough u r jux 20 but u do handle matter real well.
wif ur work a shitty place
always wans u n u n u
lyk thr's no othr ppl ard.
wtf!
eventhough the othr's r new dey still nd to learn wat
dey make mistakes learn frm dem lh.
idiots
always taking my frens away!
hmph!

not forgetting u. the another crazy doll
who's loud at tyms. very laid back..
one of the bros' tt is so suci lh sgt
haha
evry1 adores u.
u ave ur own style n i still cnt believe u cut ur hair jacob short!!
i love ur long hair though
who can do crazy stuff tt i myself cnt imagine...
eg. whr were u dancing wen tt sexy bitch song is on...
and whr were u staying again wen tt guy who's drunk wif 50cents in his pocket...
hahaha
total crazy!

n tis bimbotic bitch!
she has the looks
she tinks tt she's fat
she is smart...
but nt really street smart.
she tinks tt we loves her sister more den we love her.
at tyms she felt neglected.
n sm tyms she tinks tt she fat n ugly tt's y we dont lyk her.
Bunuh diri bro!
haha
u shud know tt we love evry n sgl one differently
we love u cause u r fat
we love ur babats
we love ur fake hair...
we love ur wrinkles..
n ur misai...
evryting u hate abt urself we love it.
heh!
bunuh diri lh...
hahaha
n u noe we simply love u for jux being the bimbotic u.
even if u look lyk nutty prof. or hair lyk tt mac auntie [the one wif bangs n super long hair always at big mac] u noe we love u more!
hehehe

another hottie!
evry1 wud jux wanna fuck her.
hahaha
she damn hot. n evry sgl clothes she wear..
jux a norm plain top or dress she jux looks gd in it.
lyk totally.
but she always has tis first impression tt she's bitchy.
she's a meanie.
she dont talk to ppl lyk u!
but frankly, she'a a total switie
super god damn nice...
nt forgetting ur super hyper adorable sister!
hahaha
ppl wont believe tt she's a mother of 1
wif her attitude and down to earth personality.
n yes i do love the both of u....

n boify,
he may look fierce but he's friendly
he may look very abg2 but he's lyk one of us
he jokes he craps
he does ave tt funny bone in him
he used wan to ave my tetek
but nw wans fad's dick..
hahaha

u being the quieter one among us.
the one who ave family probs. n so much hopes to fall in love but it nvr happen.
peice of advice dun look foor it.. it will come running to u
wen u least expect it, it will cum for u.
trust me
tings ave bn.. ermm..
nuthing much i say bout u.
cos u ave bn missing for quite sm tym.
recuperating i guess.
i jux hope u came bac to a better u
a stronger u
a lil reminder.
pls do tink before u speak.
watch ur tone at tyms.
cos w/o u even realising
u jux get on our wrng nerves.
yes we noe u mean no harm jux watch it.
=) jux a friendly note for u

heh! this one no nd say..
the pap-pap's of all the dolls...
jux get well sn.. n gotta hang out wif u sn ok.
we all MISSES u.....
xoxo

another doll is..
once a quiet guy.. to he does ave a voice n cud talk!!
yes!!
hahahaha
but i aint tt close to u..
a lil note. my fave color is RED! hahaha

thank you =)

2009-12-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

it's finally time to let go.
wishing u well.
finally i felt it's jux so right.
thank you.

lots of stuff i wish to blow up
i jux dont understand
u left.
w8... WE left u.
WE FOUND new frens.
WE MAKE FRENS wif sm1 u dont lyk?
WE BETRAY u?
WE BACK STAB u?
wat else did WE do?
or i forgot WE r FAKE n PLASTIC.
errrrrr......
HELLO!
HOW LONG DO WE AVE TO W8?
TO KNOW WAT IS THE ACTUAL CAUSE OF THE PROBLEM?
OH GET EVRY1 INVOLVE. MAKE HE OR SHE HATE HIM OR HER.
WATEVER LAH
IF U WANNA SAY TT U R MATURE AND ALL.
MIT UP N TALK.
TT'S WAT ADULTS DO.
TALK THING OUT. NOT RUN AWAY FRM EM RYT?
ohh no only adults lyk U! yes WHY-OHH-EWW!!
MATURE ADULTS lyk u run away frm it n not sit down n sort things out
w8! im nt trying to say we talk things out AND we start afresh.
NO!
den no y bother ryt.. typical.
i jux wanna clear the AIR.
u listen to one bimbotic mak nenek mulut mintak kena drill! n tt's it?
u believe tt mak nenek?
wow! mature indeed!

ohh. u cud fb msg me if u lost my num.
i doubt u ave it.
kekasih suruh buang kwn isit?
gd one.

totally broke!!

2009-12-14T13:50:00.002+08:00

yes im god damn broke. n my pay was onli last wk~!!!!

haha. true2..
but im sastified wif wat i spent.
i gt my new bulu2 half jacket~!!
yes im lurving it.
haha
nw i gt 2 Bulu2 jacket...
i shall name the new jacket ermm...
BuuBuu.
the 1st one is Bulu2 mah.
haha

n i gt a new bag.
which i tink i gt it at a super bargain price. hahaha
i paid for my hp
god noes wen im getting it.
i partied hard. yes it was worth it!
i eat alot.
lyk really pamper myself wif fd.
hahaha

im cutting dwn on ciggs as i'm broke.
haha
n finally i bought fad a present.
haha which was totally unexpected lh for him.
hahahaha
hope u love it bini.. =)

im sick n always sick
n the cough is killing me.
i cant even control it.
i noe it's annoying.
but pls bear wif it ppl.
=)

lastly i'm loving evry sgl one of my dolls.
*hugs*
thank u.

pee.ass: i hate ur freaking bag bitch!!

2009-12-06T05:48:00.001+08:00

ok random

which one of these 3???
for the pic at the side.

i love random <3

2009-12-04T17:14:00.001+08:00

Currently curi-ing tulang for awhile.
Haha..
So here goes.
I dun care what ppl say lyk seriously
Anyone or just anybody can speak their mind.
It’s a free country. Only SG byk pakai duit hor..
So yar, bac to wat I wanna say.
I dun give a damn of wat ppl do think of me. At tyms it just got me thinking.
Ppl ARE busybody by nature..
It’s a fact.
Well, someone saw me at geylang, yes the lorong.
With a guy.
On a bike.
In lorong.
So this guy, the guys who is the kpo; we shall call him KPO den.
The guy on bike we label him Guy. So dun get confused okay?
So KPO asked me out. I said no. not today [tt day lah]. As I wasn’t feeling tt well.
I injure my knee. So getting on n off the bike would b in such a pain ryt?
KPO merajuk.

Den I joke with him lh.
“Kite go geylang buy ciggs den lepak bawa my blk can.. haha”
Den KPO said
“Kite lepak bilk ar...”
Haha fat hope okay fat boy.
So I was lyk..
“nak? Nak?? U NAK I Bunuh u tak?”
I mean he shud noe me by now tt Aku ni nmpk jer mcm pompan tapi gurau nye kasar.
Hahahaha
So he ka-ba-boom...
N he said. Alar u ngan jantan lain okay
“Dgn me jer tk nk.”
N I was lyk.. huh?
Wen was the last I go geylang lorong the bilik siak?
The last was.. if I cud recall was wearing CHAOS dress with the bros lh.
So I asked him. With grrls?
N he said “dah lh u. u jgn nk step puki mahal okay? I tahu u sape. U fikir....”
Okay dowan continue...
Byk censored.
So....
Moral of the story.
Guys r worst Gossip Mongers den grrls.
Good dae. =)

1 down. 2 to go....

2009-11-12T11:28:00.002+08:00

been in a very lousy mood.
i apologize.

like she mentioned.
NS is seriously taking away those important ppl in her life.
i agree.
the laughing gases r away.
1 in thailand; for sex change
1 in jail; for attempting to burn the oil refinery
1 in forest; for nt being faithful to his farmville application
1 in camp; to teach Camo Make-Up
huh?
hahaha
but still......

i admit i miss em.

havent bn partying lately.
my eye is getting better. i tink.
so finally i got to c the doc.
yeah, to get it freaking treated.
my cough? hmmm....
no cough but it's abit sore.

ohh i bought a new bag.
n i'm lurving it.
y?
cos it's bag BuluBulu-anak-kucing-aku-sembelih!
yeah~!!!!
hahaha
i do miss the bros.

n to tt sm1
i feel bad for my reaction tt dae.
i apologize.
if u tink u noe who u r.. yes i'm sorry.
the stuffy-ness of the carpark got into me.
n nd i explain?
so, do get 'well' sn k?
imy u noe.

ok to another sm1. make it 2 sm1(s)
idk wat it is between us. but i prefer it tis wae
no strings attached.
im so nt ready for commitments.
im nt willing to give up my sgl status anytym sn..
hehe

2009-11-02T00:10:00.002+08:00

i noe i have nt been faithful to u, my bloggie duh.
so i will type another entry.

i realise tt most of my entries ave the word 'LIFE'
haha
but wat to do ryt? it is LIFE!

jux being random, again.

to ave someone to care for
to love
to ave arguments.
to kiss
to hug
to ave tt special company
to ave a special date
to ave commitments
to talk late at nyte
to go on date
or mayb double date
to go star gazing
to trust tt sm1
to ave tt special moment.....
i miss tt.

lyk i say. jux being random.
n i hate the fact tt i always ave crush on guys who r attached.
n i have to stop tt fact!

can i list dwn the people whom im missing so badly?

i miss my Rasta Bear
i miss my Bacin
i miss my Aer
i miss my wanKecik
i miss my Is
i miss my Luke
i miss my Rockstar
i miss my B. erm yeah random
i miss my Dy.
haizz...
if ur names nt mention. sori lh.
im jux typing out who i can tink of atm. haha

2009-10-30T05:52:00.002+08:00

i noe im nt gd at words.
so here goes

people change.
they grow old.
they become a better person.
some worst.
they will start working.
n some starts a family.
people forget friends.
some believe in friends come and goes.
others believe true friends stays.
some can depend on friends.
others? maybe on boify?
haha
but i do believe that true friends stay.

i may not click well with grrls.
like seriously.
i lost 1 grrlfren before.
n i do miss her.
like alot2........
but people change u see.
if u were to throw me with her in a room. the first question tt will popped wud b.....
'how's ur rm?'
huh?
hahahahahahaha

niwae. i have new-found grrlfrens.
and seriously i am happy.
i do get annoyed or angry at them at times
but
it's part of friendship right?
i happy that we do go through tough times n lots of happy times together.
thanks alot bros.
I'm glad that i found them.
thank you.

ok i'm sleepy. i power nap 1st okay?

monday blues... n im wearing black

2009-10-19T15:39:00.001+08:00

Okay.
Im actually half awake at werk.
Ahakz.
Idk wat else to do.
Lyk seriously..
So I tot y nt I jux blog another entry..

Im lyk literally bleeding n I dun lyk it a sgl bit.
Y? cos I hate the feeling.
Lyk the whole body is totally dwn..
Yes. Freaking annoying.

Let’s talk abt wishlist.
So hmm...
Since Im werking f/t nw...
Many ting I wanna aim for.
License? Hp? Money? Haha
Holidays. With family n friends
Erm...
N many2 more.

Ok. Random. I noe.

Ppl fight n make up to it.
Don’t dey get tired of fighting?
Ppl fall in love n break up.
Wat did dey stand to win? Memories?
Ppl cnt accept the fact.
Wat do u wan? Us to lie?
Ppl cnt b lied at.
U cnt expect truth all the way ryt? Smtyms ppl do lie for the better of evry1.
Ppl cnt control their emotions n flare.
Bullshit u cnt control ur emotions. If u really cnt control ur emotions, u wont b repeating it over n over again.
Ppl jux cnt stand the sight of ugly ppl.
Worst is ugly ppl inside out.
Ppl make up stories so dey dun b left out.
Another bullshit. U dun make up stories if u ave no stories. Jux listen n shuddap. Wat makes u tink other r interested to hear em.

Total random.
I noe. Haha

I prefer my hair nw. I’m praying for it to get longer!
Hahaha
Tc all...

pee.ass: I smhw wish tt u knew. Haiz. I really hope tt u r happy... tc bbg.

i gt a new bag.

2009-10-18T20:05:00.002+08:00

so lets talk abt random stuff..

i love last min.
hehe.
frm last min jalan raya, to last min random photoshoot, to last min clubbing..
n last min house party cum celebrating the festival of lights.
hahahaha

thanks for cuming dwn n making a mess at my place.
haha
wen was the last?
erm.. i cnt recall..
haha
so yar.
work?
tiring. even smtym thr aint niting much to do.

i hate....
my cough.

wen i wanna type an entry
i jux dunno whr to start.
wat to mention

ok
gd dae!

selamat hari raya. =)

2009-09-19T16:58:00.009+08:00

i will upload tis first.
my prepaid is low.
jux started werking wat so tt explains.. haha
jux wanna wish all

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
i noe im a total bitch n all, so if i did offend any1 of u out thr [of cos i did lh]
i jux wanna take tis opportunity to seek for forgiveness n apologize.
so to all Muslim friends

selamat hari raya
maaf zahir dan batin
ikhlas dari Q

i miss some ppl

i love my frens

♥hearts

gd news

2009-09-15T23:20:00.004+08:00

im finally a CPO!
hehe
so i ave shared to my dolls.
so yeah.

im jux hapi.
hehe

jux to go bac to the past...
*swooosshh~*
i remembered gg to tis job interview wif my sissy.
well my mom sort of paksa us to go.
was the best dress ppl dwn thr.
duhh~!
wat do u expect. the other were wearing t-shirt n jeans. n yes we do felt out of place.
lyk sm kids wanna get a high post job tt kinda feeling.
haha
the job tt we applied for initially wans to employ 2 ppl. but dey cut dwn to 1
n alhamdulillah, my sissy gt tis job.
well... month later. erm almost a yr later, i, Nur Faiqah got tis job.
haha!
n yes im a perm staff!
hehe
so i get to njoy the benefits as well.
only waiting for Shika [the admin grrl at SPC] to finalise my docs for me to sign.
n yes im hapi.
so more OT for me to earn more ka-chingg~!!

dun worry bini. i pray tt u will get a job sn. haha
den we live up our 'dreams'
hehe!

raya in few days.
n i dun feel the suasana.
w8.. wen was the last raya i felt lyk raya?
ahakz.

5 days....

2009-09-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

gonna start wrk on the 14th
heh!
cnt w8...
erm. nt sure if tonite jadi ke tak. hehehe

aniwae ayun's gonna go in lyk 14hrs.
wahh.. no more late nytes wif him. no more suprise him ajak go mkn.
no more tong sampah. no more erm.. the mister loud hailer.
aiyoh.
n we r so gonna miss u lah
duhh!

nvm. 2 yrs onli wat
hehehe

=)

2009-09-08T00:25:00.001+08:00

Your results:
You are Catwoman

Catwoman		80%
Spider-Man		75%
Robin		52%
Superman		50%
Wonder Woman		48%
Batman		45%
The Flash		45%
Iron Man		45%
Supergirl		43%
Hulk		40%
Green Lantern		35%

You have had a tough childhood,
you know how to be a thief and exploit others
but you stand up for society's cast-offs.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

gd or bad.

2009-09-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

i cnt share both news here though.
aiyoh.

good. hehehe. i cnt w8.
cn we go club biler tgh bulan puasa nie?
hehe
make it exceptional for me lh. cn cn?
hehehe

bad.
jux hope it turns out gd k. hahaha

random

2009-09-03T02:15:00.000+08:00

ppl change for the better.
some for the worst.
i jux hope u noe wat u r doing.
jux tc alryt.

i m missing lots of ppl.
i miss him. i miss her. n him. n hym. n he also.
n.. oh oh.
haha
so many him/hym
hahaha

ok. random!

haha

dreams

2009-08-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

i love my dream.
i wish it was reality.
well the part whr i was in the dream lh.

i miss clubbing. =(

ok watever fad.
i noe rosak.

selamat berpuasa yar. jgn lak tak kuasa. haha

2009-08-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

1st dae of puasa.
29 days to go.

hehehe
yg melayu tgh sibuk puasa.
yg ciner sibuk bakar paper.

haha
yg si hantu melayu kena ikat
yg si hantu ciner lak tgh cari mkn.

ok ok enuf.
so yg tk nk puasa go bakar paper k.

so evry1 knew tt my job has ended.
so yar. here i m gg bac to my old club.
back to b a total bummer!
haha
sort of loving it
n im getting over it.
the fact tt im nt working.
:(

let me c
so i officially stopped working on the 3rd Aug.
8th super fly
12th butter fac
14th play/butter fac
15th super fly
19th buttter fac.

fight fights n more fights.

no neng. no neng. n no neng.

hahaha

so tt's y tis bulan puasa ave to b xtra gd. hehe
cnnt burn paper wif the ciner.

i hate tis feeling.
u r nice.
but i cnt help nt tinking of u for a day.
did u kang kang kn me?
hmm.. niwae misses.

pee.ass: ok bulan yg mulia ini.
cnnt mit jantan.
n i miss u.
so im miting u sn k.
hehehe

thank eh

2009-08-11T17:29:00.001+08:00

i hate making gfs.
reason num1. mulut mcm sial
reason num2. nt sincere

no more party.
no more hang out.
sori

jux ave fun. count me out.
thanks ar bros.

back to bumming..............

2009-08-05T11:23:00.001+08:00

gd things ave to end.
yes.
upset tt thr aint a notice.
but wat cn i do it's all up to the boss..
haiz.

i miss my job. :(

hugs

2009-07-19T19:44:00.002+08:00

i wan the best for evry1
so yar

watever u do.
watever ur decision is.
i respect.

u nd sm1 to talk to
u nd sm1 to turn to..
dun hesitate to luk for me.
u noe tt i love u.
*big warm hug*

pee.ass: i noe u r really into him. jux do watever u tink is right for u. =)

hating it...

2009-07-14T19:47:00.003+08:00

im jux so sick n so hating it....
arrggh!!
the medicines aint working.
my fever is deteriorating
my body ache all over..
my voice lyk bapok.
well i sound so sengau n jantan
nak go karaoke?
hahahaha

tt's for nw.
heh!

i jux nd to rest.
nk go smoke break?
hehehe

2009-06-29T00:41:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNKOB8Do7zE

im jux getting old

2009-06-28T22:32:00.002+08:00

i love club
i love to dance my arse off...
heh!
but i tink im getting old for all tt

im ageing n im admitting.
heh!
so yar~

many issues in my head. n idk whr to start.

i love it. the job.
but part of me wanna jux kill tt bitch.
i wonder he she manage to survive in tis world?
does she even have friends?
hw did she get by until tis age?
y doesnt she jux stop. observe n listen.
sometimes i can get so pissed wif her.. wen i tink abt it, tt feeling change. Somehow i pitied her. i wonder wat m i suppose to do after tt. shud i start looking for another job? errm.. n i working here for long? well Sam onli mention tt im covering for Evon. hmm

next topic.
i hate getting in tis mess. i jux cnt b bothered most of the times. seriously. its hard to trust ppl at tyms. heh! so yar
to u.
i do miss u. i do. but im jux so sori.
tt relationship tt we once had. we make it tt wae.
dun change it.
i jux fear to fall in love wif u. well i knew all along tt u did fell in love wif me. im sori. but i tot we both understood it all. tt's the wae how it shud go.
ryt?
so much i wanna get bac to u/ i jux cudnt. im scared. i manage to convince myself tt u n me a BIG major NO-NO! so... tt's y the silence was thr. sori. really i m.

damn nw i sound lyk a total bitch.....

frens come n go.
true frens stay.
so who r ur true frens?

oh oh
a quick update on affyq!
hapi belated bdae. hah!
smlm aku call den i ave to hang up
wen i call bac dh tk layan eh!
sembarang ar~!!
haha

so niwae. i jux love tt advance bdae cum slumber party tt we hd for u.
come on thank me!
for all tt stoopid snapshots ard tamp n pris. heh! seriously, i was having fun!
azieera.. mane video ar?
yg dier joget depan d'marque in front of evry1
haha
it was a splendid nyte.
haha

hapi bdae niwae!

can pics start doing toking nw?
haha
ok ok a last summary...

ydae, accompanied fad to Da Showcase meeting. well me n ayis were bz camwhoring. hehe!

ok i lazy to upload
haha

i lioke................................................................................................................................

2009-06-07T17:21:00.002+08:00

i luv random outings.
cn i say im broke?
heh!

pics update in fb.

the whole wk has bn gr8.
random clubbing trip on a wkdae.
i didnt slp tt nyte at all...
heh!

i was awake for lyk 36 hrs.
but i was dead shagged.
i luk superb fugly.
haha

random shoping trip. heh!
new top for club.
new bag. dun jealous k ct! haha
sm cushion heels pad for my wedge.
heh!
shud i pair a skirt or pants huh?
hmm... im gg for skirt lh
hehe
cn? white skirt.
tt new pelach top
n wedge?
bole?

now i ave too many black.
yess...
i nd colours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dowan to have a boring closet.
shopping again? hehe

ok now let the pics do the talking.
k k

the last min. super random clubbing trip. hehe
cant do tt often ok!
i still love my job. heh!

My FAVOURITE SHOT OF THE DAY!
HEHEHE!!

we really pretend tt we r lesbians.
the guys freak us out.
hahahaha

ok fine!
im always whiny!

so much of wanting to go eat at popeye! hmph!
benci..

i luv the legs. so small!
hahaha

taaaakkk naaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkk~!!

cute ryt?
until mak atok get in the pic...

haha

he can freak the shit out of me. idk y!
hahaha

seram kn mak atok!!
haha

n ayis u luk lyk 1 pervert!
haha
seram aku!
-,-"

its a hot hot day.
pics uploaded in fb. njoy bitches!

he's back! he's back... grins

2009-05-30T13:15:00.003+08:00

so yar he's back. im excited!
hehehehe

hw's my wk?
haha its onli sat.. n the whole wk was jam packed!
lyk totally.
hah!
mon. i cnt recall wat i did...
same goes for tues to thurs...
i tink thurs i met the rest at starbucks.
oh oh..
fri half dae.
cos i wanted to go doc.
wen to john little sale.
n i gt SHOES!
yes!
n i bought tis totally gorgeous for dlb fac event!
shud i wear em todae?
heheh!
nk nk!
bole?
nk kai baju ape eh?
hmm.. i tink i wanna wear it todae.
entah eh.
considering lh.
so yar!

i gt tis kitten heels slippers.
yes i bought slippers!
n so far no blisters lar...
but i will buy more shoes in future.
mayb lots of wedges n jux stock on em.
heh!
so went over budget tau!

cn i finnally declare im broke till my nxt pay?
IM BROKE!
i so wanna walk to work but if i walk i cudnt make it in tym.
hah!

my throat hurts. i gt too much phlegm! my nose is cracking.
im FAT!
yes. i noe.
im gaining lyk nobody's business....
so yar!
i gt too may dresses.
black dress.
heh! i jux bought a new black pelacur dress.
erm. i tot it wasnt tt short buy yar it is!
hah!

tings tt i bought ~~tis month.~~ tis pay!
black dress[online]
num kitty heels
charles n keith wedges
2 shampoo
2 conditioner!
hello! dey r selling it at 30% off k.. moreover tt's the cheapest i found ard mah~
oh btw i did the maths wif affyq i save 12bucks! hah!
1 red top [club marc]
1 white top [ko-turn-on?]
2 dorothy koomson! hahahaha
lots n lots of ciggies n cab fares!
heh!
frankly i dun remember wat i bought lh!
haha

nyahhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~!

mixed feelings...

2009-05-27T13:24:00.001+08:00

haiz.
so much i wanna noe..
i jux cnt b bothered.

missing u.
hehe
cum bac sn.

it has been so long since u flew away.... grins

2009-05-26T16:30:00.005+08:00

late nyte movie.

heh!

lyk super late k!

n super the erm.. last min!

well nt really lh..

frm 9 pm movie kte watch the 1 plus movie!

haha

but i luv the story

damn farni.

ryt azieera n kerul.

we were bz laughing all the way!

haha

i'm nt crazy!

im at work.

bz.

haha!

sat! he's cuming bac to sg!

geez.. cnt w8!

hehehehehehehehhee

hope tt he'll mit me sn

*grins*drools*

watever tt will happen shall happen.

heh!

nyaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~!!!

2009-05-18T16:01:00.002+08:00

new frens?
hey hey grrl fren!
haha

yes i gt new grrl fren. no no
i mean grrl fren(s)

i noe.. dey r grrl grrl!
nt guy grrl k!
hahaha

u wont get bored wif em ard.
drng gile!
ah ah.. gile mcm aku lh...
haha

to my bitch,
i luv u.

to my grrl bitch,
guys=jerks.
believe me.
hahaha
dun luk for love.
dey will cum for u.
njoy life!
being sgl is the best ting.
seriously.
believe me.
for me.. the onli ppl tt i love r all my bitches!
dey love me.
n i love em too..

to my x-collegue/late-nyte buddy,
i will support u in ur new life.
have faith..
n till nw u hutang me 100++ reaching 200 liao!

to my bimbo bitch,
dun stress out over guys.
jux b urself.
dun change urself to b sm1 u r nt wen u wif him.
watever or whoever tt makes u hapi...
give it tym...
=)

to the abg-army-who-always-freak-me-out
its ok to cry.
no worries evry1 does tt
but get a grip of urself.
i noe it's heart pain.
i ave bn thr once..
treat it as a lesson learn..
all tis heart ache will make u a stronger person one dae.
jux cherish those moments.
forget the heart pain..
u cn always call me up u noe...
hehe

to new bitches..
i luv u all!
hahaha
welcome to the bitchy club!
*hearts*

i wonder wat happen?
do we deserve tis?
u wanna change?
y dun u voice out.
disappointed?
yes i m
haizz..
wonder wat's nxt.
u maturing?
onli god knows.
wish u gd life den dear fren
hope tt tis is wat u wan.

if u wanna stop n turn bac.
its all up to u
u cud if u did realise the mistake.
ahakz. hapi life for u..
i hope
n

2009-05-17T23:04:00.001+08:00

so much i wanna update i dunno whr to start.

nytes love.
thank u.

let the pics do the toking............. hehe

2009-05-15T13:27:00.003+08:00

enuf for nw....

hahahaha

thanks all.. i love u all

2009-05-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

so yeah!
my bdae started tues, 28th april!
hahahahaha
uh huh

thanks Zaxx.
hehe

den on my bdae hd dinner.
wif my family of cos.
ate crabs.
lala. baby kailan. ayam!!
n dey ordered othr stuff lor.
hehehe

1st May
wen 'double date' wif my sis n fai
me wif ayun!
hahaha
kalau mkn ajak ayun best
he cn really eat
ryt ayun?
nuthing goes to waste!
hehehe

n thanks for the nyce suprise. arsehole.
haha!
so much of a date.
screw u.
hahaha
n u actually invite the bitches over.
hahahaha
thanks Qam.
for the swit bdae.
hey i onli say i wan celebrate my bdae at chalet.
cut cake blow candles.
n eat chicken.
n yes the buffalo wings r to die for.
frm setting the venue.
frm doing the guest list
n keeping me in the dark
hahaha
i love the chicken.
hahaha!!!!!!!!

date wif lala
jux both of us.
go find chicken Mamak!
hahahaha
n thanks for the bdae gift!
hahaha
very pretty.....
n the gd pics.
hehe
den met up wif ayis fad n izhan
hehe
camwhore smmore..
pics upload

to go gaga over us

hahaha

lazy sunday was ok
i gt a gift frm ayun
hehe!
n i love it.
duhh! who wont ryt?
i do!
n hell no im wearing it to work
hehehehehe
n thanks pakcik for the ducky!
quack!!!!!!
its cute.
damn cute!
really...

mayb tis sun i gt date again
hehehe

aiming tis green vans shoe!
cute banget yer~!!
terima kasih semua yg beri kn ku hadiah.
gue suka banget.
hehe
nk kasi lai pun bole.
so 20th may im getting my hp
shhh..
dun ask!

miss u love

2009-04-28T21:19:00.004+08:00

hw's wrk?
i will always bitch abt it
so yar!

hahaha

i miss u.
yes all u idiots lar!!!
hehe

it has bn so long.
yes.
so long since i've heard frm u
yes i miss u.
i miss those moments we hd together.
the tym jux onli both of us together.
those moment.
laughters.
being wif u.
onli u.
hd those talks.
those quiet moments.
cuddling each othr
late nytes 2gether.
those understanding.
din noe wat happen between us.
n i din hear frm u
i miss u.
i really do.
lyk really alot alot
haizzz...
i really hope u r ok.
tt watever decision u make does make u hapi
as long as u r hapi im hapi for u.
mayb u r changing?
idk.
at the same tym i wonder if i cud have u bac?
i will b glad to ave u bac in my arms.
i seriously m nt faking it...
......i miss u. =(

so hw's evry1 wif getting a date?

i heard smbody already gt a date!
hahahaha
who?
hahaha
Miss so-the-cerewet-nk-mampos-mintak-kena-terajang!
kenal tk krng?

hahahah
tk kenal bilang aku. kasi aku terajang krng lepas tu ko kenal.. hahaha

so who dun ave a date?
i heard bdae boi wans to make forfeit!
for those w/o any dates...
hahahaha
mati krng.
selamat ko Miss so-the-cerewet-nk-mampos-mintak-kena-terajang!
n seriously the forfeit is god damn disgusting la.. haha

my date?
hahahaha
ade lh.
mayb aku gile lh mcm fad!
ajak semua
shud i ask wan kecik?
hahahaha

*grins* hehehehe

a quick guide... keke

2009-04-17T11:56:00.002+08:00

Ok lets c.
13 more days
yes..
to me gg 23.
no big deal being a grrl i suppose but for guys...
cn go most club!
hahahaha
ryt fad?
so lets c.
wat i wanna do on my bdae. nuthing!
ok. cn?
i jux wan prezzies.
hahaha
so i giv u all list of wat i nd.
ez ryt?
i noe!
haha

ok to begin wif.
i nd a freaking fone.
but knowing all of u fully well krng tk akan beli kn aku hp!
if i were u also i wont get a hp for my frens bdae.
hahaha
3310 cn lh.
cnfrm cn get one.
hahaha
ok so finally.
the list.
wat i wan...
so many tings!
haha
let me break it dwn to wat i nd.
tings tt i nd.
its all abt fashion baby!
so yar. i nd new clothes.
shoes. bags!
accessories?
nahh...
ohh cn get for me bra?
34b k!
hahaha
luk at the cutting lh
alar if u tinnking of getting for me bra hint me to gantung my coli outside.
den u make use as a sample lh
ok? c im helping u guys.
wat else...
if u plan to get me pants or shorts. pls bring ifah along.
but if ifah ckp she wear jux nice den get a bigger size.
ok?
if skirt no prob lor...

hmm...
if top..
erm.
wat do i nd.
smth tt i cn wear to work?
hahaha
so tt means smth very sopan.
size?
i tink u ave to bring...
i cnt tink who gt same body size as me.
hmm lets c...
lala too small...
ifah nahh...
kid netty affyq n fad out of question.
obviously.
izhan? i dun ave broad shoulders.
i noe!
ayun. u help ar! wear the top.
thanks.
haha
chest area kai tissue sikit.
lala cn help tt part.
she expert.
shoes.
bring fad! but if fad say jux nice. dowan.
if he say nd a size bigger den tt's it!
ohh cn get me wedge?
hahaha
my wedge dh RIP.
hahaha
socks?
i cn buy em.
thank u.
if undies. i wan cute2 ones.
i prefer black. or red.
hahaha

bags?
i nd smth sling.
so naik moto i cn bring along.
hahaha
nt too big.
n prefered nt heavy ar
oh oh
wat do i nd?
if u dowan to get me any of those above,
get me metobolism increaser?
hahaha
im so FAT!!!
or supply me wif make-up!
haha
dowan daiso ar!
hahahaha

tt's for nw.

haha. evry1 go lunch break.
i wan go do my work.
very bz at work todae.
hahahaha

joget joget. peluh peluh. pengsan!

2009-04-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

hw's dblo?
gd. sucky. ok. hot. suffocating.

evryting was ok.
hot?
always!
hahahaha

until one point of tym tt wen i wanna go out.
the place was god damn packed.
yes. totally!
n we cudnt get out.
den lala fell. hahaha
thank the couch lala.
i hate being short.
y?
cos ppl cnt c u.
lost in crowds.
no air!
yes especially in crowded areas.
tt explains y'dae.

thanks lala, affyq, azieera for being thr.
i nearly passed out.
n those strangers who give way.
haha
thank u.

no pics to upload.

my hp wen blank on me.
fark!

n thanks to ifah for making the special 'guest' appearance
haha
bitch i miss u lh fark.
n u noe u miss us ryt!
haha
dun try to bull ar...

lala, wen u wan bully me?
lamer nye..
hehehe
n u dun die on me k!
u scare the shit out of me sia!
u stoopid bitch!
hehe

n im so tired.
tt explains y i was quiet.
my body aching all over.
n still m aching nw
hahaha

the sight of u makes me weak... lalalala

2009-04-08T21:27:00.005+08:00

hmm lets c...
let me bitch abt wrk!

i hate the china man!
haha
lyk totally...
y?
cos he's so dumb to understand eng..
communication break dwn.
always.
hw to get my job done.
especially wenever i do outlet details.
hahahahaha
the worst was y'dae.

y?
cos i ave to be forced to ot.

y?
cos i screw up.
again!

y i screw up?
cos i dun understand the instructions?

y cnt i understand the instructions?
cos i cnt understand wat he's saying.

y i didnt ask?
i did but its nt clear. i ask him again.
he gimme tis look n explain the same china speaking which i ave no clue.

try talking to him.
hahahaha

mayb i shud give u all his office num n u guys giv him a call k.
ask him some simple questions.

lets say...
pronounce n...
he will say earn.

how abt order?
he will say outlet.

n in tis work i ave to do outlet n order n i always gt mixed up.
wen i ask him outlet he say order.
den i giv him my huh face..
n ask order he still repeat order.
leave me clueless...
i will sit dwn thr trying to figure out which is which.
haha
bad?
i noe.

try to b in my shoes.
ur 1st day at work n he teach u.

yes a china man teach me
.
taught me hw to do the stuff dwn thr..
for at most 2 hrs
n leave me all alone at my desk trying to solve the puzzle.
wat he jux said..
wat he jux did on my own. uh huh!
hw do u feel? lost?

he said u dunno ask.
yes i asked..
n u will b left thr wondering..
my 1st wk i hd lots of screw ups.
cos i was trying to figure out his language..

nw?
im getting better.

n i still suxs at emailing.
i noe u guys will say.. sak emailing senang...
no no nt norm emailing jux rply to cust. or to ur othr colleagues smwhr out thr
but to edit the excel files...
to do order...
for the outlets..
smtyms buffer...
or returning of stocks..
well the invoice vary all the tym..
wif tt much email he wud simply say
'pint out lee outlet invoice [mayb it's order]'

go figure!
haha

oh oh ydae!
i nearly lost my patience.
y? cos im wrking in a chinese environment. n evry1 speaks chinese!
n dey bitch abt u all the tym.
yes dey tok abt me in chinese.
dey ever ask..
u noe chinese.
i simply ans.. no!
hahaha
hey i also wanna hear wat dey ave to say abt me too ryt?
atleast im listening to dem live..
n not in private u noe
hahaha
bitchy aunties n uncles.
n no offence to china ppl out thr but tis china man...i really2 hate him.
he's jux too dumb.
n he stinks.
yes early in the mrng he stink.
i wonder isit bcos of his unshaved armpits or ermm u noe whr...
*dwn thr?*
haha their ppl dun lyk to shave wat!

so yeah.
thanks for reading tis much hor!
hahahahahahaha

but its ok.
im still loving my job.
oh ayun dun complain tt u r getting paid 5 hrs per hr..
cos i m in the same boat!
hahahaha
but the gd ting is tt in getting paid n teeny weeny bit more for ot
*chuckle*
haha

ok enuf of heart pain tok lh
hw abt sm fun talk...
haha
let's c...
hmm.. u guys luve man wif chest?
i saw tis profile..
well he wanted to add me up..
but i tink i giv it a pass..
i give it to u all desperate souls out thr k..
hahahaha
check him out!

>>>hot sexy hunk!<<<

kekeke
hw has nyce bicep..
cute face...
a studious person..
stable future..
cnfrm!
some more cnfrm setia one...
hahahahahaha

oh oh
the othr dae i ot at 3rd floor
[btw 3rd floor is my sis's floor im working at 1st floor..
diff department....]
den i saw my frens...
hahaha
well she's dealing wif NLB
so yar.
i saw some of u on the bks cover...

here goes..

hahaha

try to figure out who tis look lyk..
a clue..
the person ave really big eyes!!
hahaha

no idea?

nxt clue.

the persons' fav current hobby is.............

TO ROT!

haha
ok fine. ez ryt?

nxt.........

nuthing farni lh tis one..
well it's nt suppose to b funni niwae.
tis one i jux find tt tis pic resemblance him/her...

clue?

pelacur?
no no.. pepek.
ok. u get ur ans.

ok.
nxt.

try guessing.
ok no clue.

try to figure out lh.
erm.. the person is big!
n has a really loud voice...
hahahaha
small sleepy eyes.
n man tits!
kekekeke

hahaha

same kn!!
hahahaha

my fav pic of all tym!
hehe

nt clear enuf?

clearer?

well tt's the best i cn take k!!

any clue?
hahaha
w8 ar!

try guessing lh!!!!

ok fine!!

tadaaa~!!!!!!!

thr!
mcm same kn!
hehe

love u!
hehehe

i plan to slp todae...

2009-04-04T19:01:00.003+08:00

i jux..
im hapi. sad. upset. worried. mix feelings.
hw i wish tt evryting is gg fine for evry1.
well im adapting.

even hw much i screw tings up..
its part of wrk life ryt?
im jux glad tt i'm finally wrking.
i dun even noe hw much im getting paid
haha

i miss u.
i miss my frens.
i miss the dates.
i miss jantans.
i miss late nytes.
i miss slping late.
i miss lepaking till late.
i miss many2 tings.
i miss..
hehe

let those misses b misses.
once in a while i will do tt.
i miss clubbing also.
hehe
drinking.
guys.
hahaha

nvm
tt one thurs k
joget joget. gesek gesek.
hahahaha
jadi pelacur k krng

i miss u. haizz

so.. hw's work?

2009-04-04T17:26:00.002+08:00

work?
hmm.. working hrs ok.
8 to 6.
mon to fri.
ohh
if i wan ot also cn.
heh!

so...............
i screw my 1st day. lyk so bad. dun blame me.
u taught me evryting in lyk 1.5 hrs to 2 hrs. den u leave me on my own. den u say 'if u dunno hw to do. ask me' wen i ask u giv me tis stoopid r-u-so-dumb face... wat! i no nuts abt tis system. i noe nuts abt logistic. i noe nuts abt packing. wave. release. delivery order. despatch list. hw many pieces to print. hw to do overseas order. wat to fill in. the desp. num. the invoice num.
hahaha
trying screwing all tt in ur brain.. in jux 2 hrs..

stoopid china man!

so yar.
im lurving tis job.
haha
y?
cos i ave too. well i lyk the work thr.
if onli the ppl thr r nicer.
heh!

ohh... they gossip abt me.
yes!
in chinese.
in front of me.. i tink ar drng kn practise...
kalau tk suka bobal depan depan.. jgn bobal blakng org tu.
so dey literally BITCH abt me in front of me
but in chinese
hw cool is tt!
thank u.

im in the mood

2009-03-28T15:25:00.003+08:00

in so lurving tis wk~

hehehe

yes!

i finally gt my ans.
thank u
a long w8 but it's worth it.
no im nt mad or angry at u
nope.
hehe
frankly tt was den.
but i felt more disappointed lar
lyk wat i told u
n thanks.
wow!
i cnt believe tt we actually hd a gd talk.
yes.
n even though i may act or behave lyk a kid
which i noe i m a kid
but smtyms i do tink lyk an adult too k!
n seriously i din realise tt thr was wgt hanging onto me...
THANK U!

enuf for tt
so i hd a hair cut
which was super short to my liking
n yeah!
coincidentally lala also hd a hair cut!
nyahahahahaha

hmm...
oh yar thanks for the last min savior!
AYIS!
for being the tk guna nye body guard
the laughing gas for the whole nyte
humilating me.. keke
n the tukang angkat barang!
hehe!
nxt mnth hor~

yeah!
im gonna buy the whole store!!
hahahahaha
scarry ryt her face wen fierce!
haha

n no matter hw much i always bitch abt u
u noe i love u! hahaha
stoopid sister!
*hearts*

n of course i love her!!

for getting me a temp job!!
finally im working!
n i cnt w8!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

thr i love her!
hehe

since the nyas gg for their fun tonite
we grrls r also gg for sm lazy fun too~!!
hahahaha

i cast a spell....

2009-03-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

so yar isit so bad?
hahaha
u judge
try starng it for long long tym
mayb u get it too
hahaha

arrggh!

2009-03-24T14:50:00.002+08:00

damn sore eye!
yes..
im dwn wif sore eyes
n due to tt i gt freaking runny nose
n im suppose to go on a date 2nite!! arrgh!
wif my eyes lyk tis
n constant 'crying'
haha
alar punyer mls
haha

so.
i really hope tt kak intan wans me to help her for the new elin montel. arrggh! alar but did nt. she onli nd me to help her for their photoshoot. alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrr.... so yeah. cepat gile duit abis nyah~ im dwn wif my lst ten. yes!
i onli gt ten bucks left!
wtf. cnnt buy ciggies. too ex. most prob hello gulung~!! hahaha

i hate tis blardy eye!

mabuk mabuk... no sex! hahaha

2009-03-09T02:08:00.002+08:00

it was a nyce bbq.
thanks fad!
haha
horny bitches!

tiring?
yes
hot?
yes
slpy?
duhh! cnt u c my eye panda eyes?!?
hahaha

ok
enuf for nw.

hey ayis! atleast i update k k

to listen to the other side of the story...

Fadlee aka Manager
Affyq aka Backstage Crew
Ayun aka Guest
Lala aka Mama-san
Izhan aka Office Boi
Ifah aka V IP

k done!
hahaha
nytes

sori.

u ave always bn thr...

2009-03-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

wen im up or dwn u ave bn thr
wen i feel so low u r thr
to celebrate to njoy u r thr too!
the one n faithful partner.....
thank u!

life?
haha
enuf said.

bn gg out.
club.
drink.
drink.
lepak.
late nyte supper.
lepak.
drink.
drink.
smoke.
drink.
smoke.
yes. too much drinking.
but im loving it

life is currently abt aving fun.
kinda loving it.. partly i dunt.

a 2nd chance

2009-02-26T14:49:00.003+08:00

i found u.
ahakz..

it was weird the last tym
nw we gt along
heh

im glad.
im hapi.
im trouble-free.
im so comfy ard u.

=)

cnt w8 to mit u sn. heh!

gd mrng arses

2009-02-18T21:53:00.003+08:00

time check 9.45
haha
i jux woke up after 2 nyte of nt ehuf slp

mon nyte.
wen mit up wif luke.
he was dwn.
lyk his fam probs.
his sch.
his wrk.
so yeah.
thr i was..
wif him
trying to cheers him up.
end up i went back after lunch.
haha

hd a fw hrs of disturbed slp..
n den wen to luqman's fren; botak's bdae.
hahaha
yeah his fren brought the date forward.
it was suppose to b wed.
ahakz..
well evry1 was ok lh
erm i din really tok to ani of the grrls.
heh!
well.. hahahaha
i wasnt in the mood to get high.
lyk.. ahakz. Q! dowan to get high...
hahaha
it was a gr8 nite though.
yes it is.
better den our 1st date.
hahaha

it was nyce tt we cn try to work tt out again.
giv it a 2nd shot.
ahakz.
i really wanna find whr's tt poem.
cos i cnt recall whr i placed it.
hoping to find it sn.
hehehe
thanks for making me so comfy
n i felt so welcome.
=)

2009-02-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

heyy..

hapi bdae old man~!!

oh yar.. i dun lyk ur choice of fd!
hahaha
we siblings dun lyk it~
*blahhh~~

thanks for the vdae treat~
heh!

2009-02-12T02:22:00.003+08:00

i love tis link.. hehehehe
u noe i love u bitch!
hahahaha

pics uploaded yar....
previous links

Botanical Garden

St James

njoy bitches!

love or lust

2009-02-11T17:23:00.006+08:00

confused?
yes.
totally!

tt nyte..
u make evryting so gd.
yes. it was lyk perfect.
i din noe wat got into u.
i felt the love.
did i? or i imagine it all...
those words
so simple yet it brought tears in my eyes.
u din realised but it make me cry
i din noe y....
part of me was happi to hear it all
the othr half was so sad
i din noe y
y shud u said it?
y?
cnt u jux let b kept
smwhr in ur heart
n nt let me noe
im lost
haizz...

lets party!!!

2009-01-26T20:11:00.001+08:00

st james was gr8!
hahaha

luke was my date. ahakz..
i went wif his frens. erm 4 of em...
den i met the rest; izhan ayis qamarul lala naddie n shiok.
haha

the songs was okay.
nt really so gr8 but i love boilers!
hahaha

oh saw khairul anwar.
ahaks..
always saw him lately wen im drunk.. no no nt really drunk..
tipsy!
hehehe

free flow
free fd!
i love the eclair!
yummy...
really!
wat cn i xpect ryt..
all free..
hahaha

erm..
thanks to luke for being a sweetie...
for teman-ing me teman lala till her 1st bus..
n so hw's batam niwae lala?
haha opps.. austrailia?
hahahahaha

nuthing much to update..
ohh im so wanting to go to their 3rd anniverssary den
hahahahaha

mabuk.. have sex
mabuk lagi.. have sex lagi!

last entry till i dunno wen....

2009-01-14T14:23:00.002+08:00

life?
wat life i ave nw?
ryt?
hahaha
wake up do household chores
wash clothes..
hang clothes
fold clothes
make my bed
vacuum my rm n the whole house
watch tv
msg2
lie dwn in bed
go out
lepak
go hm

watch tv
slp

n the cycle continues
c! nuthing new

so yar.

bye for nw.
cheers~!

i dunno whether to believe u.
u seems sincere
u told the whole world
u told ur frens.
shud i?
part of me is hoping for it
part of me is trying nt to believe it
i ave no clue
i dun ave a bad feeling abt u
but yes i ave guilt in me
im afraid tt i cnt
im scared tt i will giv up
no i dun tink its abt u
i guess it mux ave bn jux me
ya i tink it will b me..
jux gimme time
ok?

pc's up

2009-01-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

nothing to update

still the same boring me

nytes

a new beginning

2009-01-01T17:55:00.003+08:00

2008

a yr past so fast. damn fast
ups n downs.
love n hurt.
trust n betray.
true friends stay.
new friends welcome.
some friends distanced.
new guys.
old guys.
jerks.
bitches.
sluts.
love.

so many happening.
lots of fun tym.
sm misunderstandings.
those were sm memories of 08.
gdbye.
i learn alot.
thank u.
hopefully it make a better me.
n 09 here i cum.
im so ready to go thru all obstacles.
insya-allah..
b a more sensible.
more grown-up..
less whiny

Key-U!

urgently nd a blardy job!
lyk smth f/t.
im so sick sitting at hm. yes.
im tired!

hapi new yr dear fellow.. erm.. people!
hah!

damn! 4 more mnths!!!

2008-12-25T15:27:00.001+08:00

i'm so nt luking forward.
haizz..

bored bored bored~
im jux so tired arguing.
so tired.
i grew lazy lar seh.

cnt w8 for death date.

merry christmas arses!

the tym of the mnth

2008-12-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

i really hate tis feeling..
n stomach cramp!!
arrgghh~!!!

y do grrl get mens n we ave to carry babies!!

i hate tis mnth!
i hate todae!

greenish bluezz

2008-12-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

hehehe
life?
unpredictable!

ahakz.. mua sissy joined me clubbing few days back!
yes! my blood sis!
haha
n she did felt out of place at 1st
but den she did hd fun
so 1 new clubbing kaki 4 me lor~!!
hehehe

my bridesmaid is away.
checking out melamine in china.
kewl shit or wat!
hahaha

i also ave no idea whr's the god damn pics r located at!
darn
love life?

confusing.

i wanna b wif u
but it seems u r nt interested.
wenever u call my heart did skip a beat.
wenever i hear frm u im all smiles.
but im nt sure if us being together is the right ting.
yes u make me hapi n all.
but ave u bn thr?

i like like u!
yes i do.
but i noe i cnt b wif u.
even if i wan too.
but i dun tink tt we shud b together.
well part of me hope tt we b together.
another part doesnt.
y?
cos i hate to spoil it all.
tis wonderful frenship tt me n my frens make.

n i dunno y im missing u so much.
n i dun miss him tis much.

u were 24/7 luking for me..
u onli msg me wen thr's a nd.

confusing?
haha

pure angels!

2008-12-14T14:24:00.003+08:00

fad's bdae celebration was gd.
i gt high. hehe
n one part i cnt breath
yes it was so bad i panic.
but thank god nuthing worst actually happen.

pics uploaded

the Touch of White Affair! kekekeke

mayb the nxt clubbing shud b the Scandals' Nyte!
evry1 bring a partner!!
hahaha

which is so nt gonna happen but y nt ryt?
kekeke

wat-da-fark

2008-12-12T12:23:00.004+08:00

hate my pc...
was typing a looooooooooooooooooong entry n it gt jammed. hanged.
n the auto save din wrk
wtf!

enuf for nw.

i feel lyk...

2008-12-10T16:48:00.001+08:00

go gelak gelak..
go mabuk mabuk...
go cari jantan

2moro nite!

hehehehehehe

bole?

2008-12-09T18:32:00.011+08:00

wen u r bored. u cn juc came up wif tings to say
topics to gossip abt etc etc
n i do believe in a pic says a thousand words

b4 i start anyting, the link to Da Hip Hop Affairs

ok here goes.

thr's is once tis couple...
always fighting2 n fighting
the hubby ego
the wifey tk nk kalah
haha
so evrydae dey wud always b fighting n nagging..
den gt tis kpo neighbour of theirs use hisHer digi cam n took pics of em in the mist of n argument

Hubby: tu lh awak. manja kn anak awak tu sgt.
skrg ape dh jadi?
sape yg malu?
tgk anak awak malu kn kte....

Wifey: ape ni bang! itu satu2 nye anak kte.
kalau Ela tk manja kn dier..
sape yg Ela nk manja kn...
[Ela=Tiara Isabella]

the argument continues......
after awhile....

Hubby:iye lh iye lh
kali ini aje abg mengalah
abg penat ni... hmmm....
buat lh ape yg patut

Wifey:Suka!
Abg best lh... Syg abg many many!
mlm ni abg nk. Ela sanggup!! heee~!!
*wow! shopping lh nmpk nye aku!*

den few wks later, the daughter got married. a very small wedding at hm.
tis the weding pic...

the mother nye bastard go spend evryting!
her daughter n new hubby wear their tis yr raya baju kurung

_____________________________________________

tis to to make up for too long i ave bn missing.
hope u r entertained
oh oh

kisah ini tiada kaitan dgn hidup atau mati
ini adelah rekaan semata mate utk entertainment.

2008-11-24T12:54:00.002+08:00

thank u to those who ave bn thr for me..........

thanks gf.

the moment tt i almost gave up.
u were thr.
u called me up.
u miss me lyk hw i miss u.
u care!
hehehe

2008-11-18T19:43:00.002+08:00

i tot sitting at hm aint gonna b so bad
but i was wrng!
i clean my rm again last nyte!
i hang my clothes!
i arrange my stuff in the boxes!
i fold my clothes neatly!
n i stayed hm.
yet...

i'm wasting electricity.
i'm nt doing niting.
i'm ave to water the plants.
i ave to wash clothes.
i ave to hangthe washing.
i ave to wash the dishes.
i ave to fold clothes.
i ave to listen to em nag.
i ave to listen to em tok crap.
i ave to listen.
i ave to fucking listen!

i stayed out.. i'm nt using much electricity ryt?
i sort of save bills.
n wen i'm at hm i cnt watch dvd.
i cnt surf net.
i cnt watch tv for long.
i cnt tok on the house fone.
i cnt tis.
i cnt tt!

i'm sick of it all.
i wanna go bac to sch
but at the same tym i'm unsure
no more late nytes.
which is gd cos i really wan to get my sleeping pattern back.
i dowan to aged too sn!
at least i ave a schedule to follow.
yes yes! i cn die jux waking up n tinking watelse ave i nt done in my life!!
and at least a life n goal to work for?

but the onli prob will b..
i avent told my parents yet
but i told my bro though.
does tt count?
haha
well.. i dunno
i tot of jux wrking for it w/o even telling em.

i.. life?

.::forgive me::.

2008-11-17T11:10:00.002+08:00

i noe i havent bn gd
i noe im nt an angel
i noe im nt perfect
i noe i fell for u
i noe i'm a flirt
i noe i'm scared to lose u
i noe i avent bn truthful
i noe i ave too many guys
i noe i'm afraid

forgive me

i was so hapi to mit ya
haha
but i dunno
mixed feelings.
i'm aving doubts
n i hate tt
once i ave doubts
precaution is always up next
wen precaution is up next
i wud b very selfish
den i wud destroy evryting
for fear of getting hurt myself
so i might as well hurt the othr party n nt me

im so afraid to fall too deep for u

gimme time k.

2008-11-15T19:06:00.003+08:00

bn almost two wks huh?

life?

frens?

work?

sch?

wat? sch!

yeah.
i n fad plan to take up another course.
but i ave yet to tell my mom yet abt my decision
well b4 i cud tell her, i ave to plan my timing.change my lifestyle.
lyk really change
no more parties evry wk!
parties shud b lyk on special occasion onli!
yes.
frankly, parties.. dancing.. drinks.. guys!
wow!
i love em all!
yes.

i love to high feeling.
n yeap. i din get drunk k!
unlyk sm ppl.
no names mention.
hahahahaha

work?
well kak intan luk me up.
for a very last min make up asst.
hehe
pay? gd. way better den wat i deserve.
working hrs? sux!
imagine wrk 12 hrs + + +...
hahaha
10 to 11
10.30 to 11
7.30 to 9 plus.
tk gile?
but thank god it's onli for 3 days!
haha
n if she nds me again.. she cud jux ring me up though.
hehehe

my body clock?
i kip waking up at 8 plus am evry dae nw.
n i get fed up.
y?
cos i woke up lyk in a shocked!
yeah its irritating.
but i ave to adapt to it i guess..

i dunno y i lyk u
i dunno y i miss u
...
i wan to take tings slow
i wan tings nt to end
i jux hope tt if tings were to happen
tt evryting we go thru together
...
m i rushing?
haha

finally

2008-11-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

all pics ave bn updated. go check it out in my photobucket link
ohh.. n sm pics i actually placed em in folders..
it's at the left hand side of the photobucket
eg of sm names of the folders r..
ifahs crib
rayaedit.
etc

pls sm1

2008-10-26T22:25:00.001+08:00

curse me dead cn?

thank you. u r so kind.
god bless.

a long entry to make up the wks i din update...

2008-10-20T16:59:00.002+08:00

So firstly....

yeah.
it's the festive season.
duhh~!
raya lh geng!
so finally i wen out wif my fellow bitches n whores for jln raya
evry1 [i tink], woke up on the wrng side of the bed
yes.. well i did!
haha

so b4 i actually upload more of the raya pics, lets me amuse u guys...
well i may nt amuse 1 though
but sori i cnt help it but share
lyk dey say

sharing is caring!

ryt lala!
hahaha

imagine fad is a matrip?
cn imagine?
haha
i cn onli imagine a minah lh
come let me help u...

ade sikit mcm fad?
haha
ade kn the bibir!
n mata
fierce seh fad ade tatts!
hahaha

nw hw abt fad being drag..?
hahahahahaha
seriously i tink tis is fad in disguise!!
honestly!

kn! the pose is the same..
fad luv to take tis type of blowup doll pose...

hang on!

k back!

so hw?
any resemblance?
haha
gt ryt?
c! told ya~

hahahahahahahahahaha

hw's wrk? well finding. i'm finally done wif the SEAB project. but i felt so lost.
yes i do. lyk i dunno wat to do nw. wat is gonna hapen next. no back up plans.
ni idea hw i m gonna survive.
yes i'm stress on evryting nw.
so i nd to get a job asap n badly.
enuf of job.
frens?

well life has bn gd.
i guess.
make new frens. old frens stay. true frens stick by.
n i'm thankful to ave em ard.

tt's for nw.

2008-10-07T06:31:00.001+08:00

the more tt i wanted to noe wat's the reason...
nw i'm scared.
yes.

help?

obstacles in life..

2008-09-24T12:06:00.003+08:00

1 dae = full of crap= stress = craving for ciggies = lots of tension = scared for a fren = u realised hw much dey actually meant to u even though dey r a piece of shit!
hahaha

so yes! ydae was a gd n bad dae for us all..
but cnt dey make it gd for us?
kn easier..
so we cn still go n partty on the 24th 25th n 26th!
haha

no worries. evryting is gonna b alryt!
jux ave faith in urself..
bend over..
n 15daes later i c u k!

HaqiafRun

Midnight 

when i gave up, u came along.....

23 more days to quarter of a century... -_-''

good morning all....

people still talk..

happy v day

Taurus 2011 horoscope and 2011 Taurus Astrology

it's hard

it's hard

2011; the year of the rabbit

darling...

a prayer

one by one... they are coming back.... i swear!

the weather is so good to fall asleep........ =)

15 days of puasa......

finally updating again................

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

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In Detail

30th April

you are just unfair

let's count.....

3 wishes

i can b nice. seriously.

let's party.....!

*pfft.....

** eh mak ko melayang....

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Since 10/11/05

counting dwn to 2010....

thank you =)

totally broke!!

i love random <3

1 down. 2 to go....

monday blues... n im wearing black

i gt a new bag.

selamat hari raya. =)

i miss some ppl

i love my frens

♥hearts

gd news

5 days....

gd or bad.

random

dreams

selamat berpuasa yar. jgn lak tak kuasa. haha

thank eh

back to bumming..............

*hugs*

hating it...

im jux getting old

i lioke................................................................................................................................

he's back! he's back... *grins*

mixed feelings...

it has been so long since u flew away.... *grins*

nyaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~!!!

let the pics do the toking............. hehe

thanks all.. i love u all

miss u love

a quick guide... keke

joget joget. peluh peluh. pengsan!

the sight of u makes me weak... lalalala

i plan to slp todae...

so.. hw's work?

im in the mood

i cast a spell....

arrggh!

mabuk mabuk... no sex! hahaha

u ave always bn thr...

a 2nd chance

gd mrng arses

love or lust

lets party!!!

last entry till i dunno wen....

pc's up

a new beginning

the tym of the mnth

greenish bluezz

pure angels!

50h3000m__180000s ♥

hugs

he's back! he's back... grins

it has been so long since u flew away.... grins