yeah i skipped the first lesson
SNW! wahahaa
went out wif my sis.
well been coping well wif my life..
thank god i have wonderful ppl filling up the emptiness in my life..
thanks guys!
yeah, coincidently all r guys.
well did make new gal frens.. ahak.. sch did rock abit for me..
haha.. luckily i saw fir on my first day sch.. tt warm me up a lil..
ahakz..

niwae, the gals in class r ok..
they r really nice ppl..
i jux need to open up more lh.. n b chatty!
wahaha..
ok let's skip sch...

hmm.. fid..? he's crazy! jux chatted wif him..
ahakz.. he's toking crazy stuff i assume..
ahakz.. i dunno whether is he speaking the truth or jux kidding ard..
i'm nt sure.. ahakz.
niwae he has been giving me lots of support!
yeah! toking to him makes me realised sm tings tt i missed in life..
i jux felt tt mayb i dont c life in tt point of view..
i dunno hw to xplain..
but he's making me stand on my two feets again..

fir! yeah.. always chat wif him at night.. wahahaha..
he's crappy.. wahaha... njoy his company.
he also have been giving me support abt the goals tt i wanna achieve in life..
he noes wat's been happening in my fam..
bcos it's happen to his as well..
hmm.. ok let's nt go deep into tt

niwae lastly, thanks to my deary fren Amilin!
yeah boi u rox! kekeke
uh huh w/o him i tink i dont have the strength to move on..
uh huh uh huh..

only god noes wat i have been thru..

ya lastly thanks Rys.
thanks for being thr for me when i need u most.
thanks for being my shoulder to cry on..
thanks for being my buddy
thanks for being my fren
thanks for once be my everyting
thanks for showing the the right tings..
thanks for opening up wat i c..
thanks for being so kind n tolerating my behaviour..
thanks for all those swit memories
thanks for all the advices
thanks for once accepting me for who i m..
thanks for allowing me to b myself when i'm wif u
thanks for making me realised tt lying gets me nothing
thanks for making me realised so many tings in life tt i nvr did c b4
thanks for everything.
[if thr's anyting tt i didn't mention i'm sorry. u once make my life great. do treat her real well. she may have wat u long for. mayb i wont b able to giv u tt but she might. luv her. n lastly pls stop loving me. thanks! for nw i would try to avoid all contact wif ya. sorry if i'm being mean. it's jux for the best of us both. tc alryt. i do treasure the old tyms. i do miss my tym wif my b but those are jux memories for me to keep. tc alryt]

ok ok tt's all folks! i need to go. wanna do sm reading.. c ya ard alryt. luv u all

*mUacks*mUacks*
QuackQuackBlondieDumDum

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dammit!
i didn't noe wat tym class start.. haha.. so i woke up at 8 am n check the net..
haha.. class at 11 cos gt snw. if nt i can come at 2 pm.. so advise me..?
haha.. i tink i wan to go east point first. ade hal!
wahaha

well yesterdae in sch was ok. ahakz.. did try to mix ard wif them. they are gd bunch of ppl.
ahakz.. only one smoker, a gal. plus me tt makes two of us. the gals dont lyk the smell of smoke... wahaha
n then yesterdae, after lunch me go to the staircase n blow the cow..
then they ajak go to the quarters. ok! i follow aje lah.. they play on the swing.. i jux sit ard.. ahakz.. still feel so shy to tok in class though.. keke..

then after class go home! yeah i was so tired ah.. haven't been sleeping well.. luckily fir can keep me company. wahaha.. smth happen last nyte.

i'm jux so shy.. keke..
niwae, if it happens it happens
if it never happen it never happens..
let it happen naturally then..

i have so many tings to say but i will only state the happy stories.
dowanna write down my probs. let me jux keep it to myself...
when the tym is ryt n i feel lyk sharing.. then mayb i might b opening up here!
ok.. wanna get ready for sch..!! wee...~~!!!


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yesterdae i chatted wif fid. well i do lyk toking to him... toking to him does allow to make me c things at diff point of view... well it's nt boring lh toking to him. onli tt i do tend to keep quiet at tyms.. cos i was thinking abt wat he's trying to say n all...

well we chatted to almost 2 hours! haha.. he need to wee... kekeke
yeah! i still rem the first dae me chat wif him i tink abt 5 hrs g2 we chatted... hahaha.. hell tt was so fun.. time really flies so fast sia...

niwae yesterdae when chatting wif him.. i did get abit emotional..
damn i hate tt when the feeling happens.. bu thanks to him he did cheer me up n i feel so much better. real gd seh i feel... haha.. n i laugh lyk one mad gal.. wahaha

ahakz.. yesterdae was suppose to call airee but i didnt. didnt wan to disturb him ah... wahaha
guess wat i do go to slp. jux hope tt he isn't so dum dum n w8 for me...

muekekekeke

niwae i tink my group of frens are changing.. i dunno frens come n go ryt.. the gals in class r pretty ok lh.. only tt i haven't know them yet...

i'm hell bored in class ryt nw..


Dear God,
pls give me strength to stand up on my two feets again. i noe i'm such a weakingly...
but i do noe tt u give me tis to test me.. oh god, pls give me the strength to move on..
i'm so afraid.. i'm so scared. i ave no one to turn to... haizz...


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yeah 2nd dae in sch... hmm.. hw's sch..?
ahakz.. dont ask.. hahha
niwae let me type abt wat had happen for the past few days...

sun.
went to my aunt's place...
ya. go mkn2 wif my sis n mom.
was bored lh.. duhh.. wif my cuzzies [beside my dad's side]
niwae, saw sm1 cute! hahaha
ahakz.. gt saw tis guy walking dwn the bridge.. he's cute lh..
kekeke.. my sis also saw. hahah
then sekali kn die limping.. mcm sakit kaki..
isk.. guess wat i did? i went to tegur him.. haha
dum dum. it's my fren ahh..
who else if nt the L(Fadlee) lover keke.. DIN!!
haha... been so long nvr meet him.
he was otw to study.. ahakz.. then we tok for awhile till his bus come..
ahakz..
then me walk to my sis. then w8 for my another aunt.. boring....!!!!

first day of sch!! i was damn early for my class... hahaha i woke up early at 8 thinking tt i's gonna b 10!
hahaha.. Q, Q... so kanchong...
n then my mom told me wat tym to go to sch...
then me said tt had to b thr at 10.
then she told me tt later after tt she wanna go tm n ask me to teman..
n then sekali she siap..
i ask her.. y so fast siap..? guess wat she wanna follow sia..
hahaha
then she tok to me abt him..
i guess she's jux afraid i did not come hm..
haha.. i did come hm duhh!! but real late..
things happen...

aiyoh!
mls seh nk layan g2.. haha
i dunno y but i was so frustrated, scared.. n abit upset..
haizz.. then at night me tok to airee for awhile..
he's working.. dum dum. haha me kacau2 dier..
then me call fir.. hahhaa.. another dum dum..
tok n tok to him.. kekeke..
jux tell him my dae n all..
ahakz..
niwae today he's gg for a job interview..
hope tt he get the job jer lh.. wahahaha
all the best ABG ABG!! kwang kwang kwang..

n one more thing...
HAPPY BDAE JENNY!!!
mua lil sis's b'dae lh.. hahah
onli 16!! hahahhaa

later gg out wif her. hope me didnt come hm late ahh..
haha.. c hw lh..
shit i need to call ibu...
abt tis weekend n next weekend..

k lh t-cher dh start ajar..
wanna listen.. haha!!!!!!

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yeah.. sch starting soon...
yeah abt few more days to go..
ahaks..

well ave to start slping early..
damn my eyes hurt..
mcm aili's eye. damn damn!!
n idiotic pimple.. grrr...
y all the tings tt i dont wish to happen did happen...??

niwae i dont feel gd.. always sick.. ahakz
hmm.. i dunno wats wrong wif me..
my chest still hurts..
but dunno wat's wrong...
when me cough ryt.. thr's lyk traces of blood..
woohooo~!! dying soon...!!!
kekeke..

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life..
being locked at hm..
well started toking to my mom todae..
after lyk 2 days me didnt tok to her..

well a letter for u..
i'm glad u gt sm1 new. i really m..
i mayb upset tt u found her.. but y shud i b ryt..?
i shud b happy for u. i'm jux glad tt u r happy wif her.
seeing u happy is enuf to make me happy.
love her wif all ur heart.. dont disappoint her in anyway..
whenever u r wif her, dont tink of other gals.. xcept ibu n adik.
ahakz..
n one more thing...
make her the happiest gal of bukit batok alryt!
she will b sm1 special in ur life.. n u r gonna b sm1 special in hers..
thanks for entering my life..
thanks for everything tt u give me..
thanks for all advice tt u giv..
u tc of her alryt! dont break her heart...
may both of u stay together till the end..


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heya. life..?
wat can i say abt life..?
i dunno..
i cant say wat i'm feeling ryt nw..
say i'm happy..? sad..? angry..?
i'm unsure...

tt dae i met sham.. a nice guy..
full of craps..
ahakz.. damn him!! arrgghh...

i'm missing him....
i tink u noe who u r..

well gt to noe his attached..
finally! he's moving on wif his life...
n mine..
i jux lyk the way it is nw..
i dont wish to get myself into any relationship..
nt nw.. n hopefully nvr..
n congrats to u.. she's a gr8 gal.. i c..
n she's the one for u nt me..
i wasn't gd enuf for ya..
m nvr gonna b... dont hold it back alryt...
watever had happen between us is history..
i'm nvr gonna hope tt one day we will b together..
even if we r fated to b..
i will make sure tt will nvr happen..

i'm shutting my heart. i dowan to fall in luv..
airee.. i dunno. watever happens will happen..
ahakz..
no Q.. tt will nvr happen...
ok i'm mad..
arrgghh.. stop here.. damn!

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ahh sharp pain again. wonder wat is wrng.. jux dont get it..
y my chest kept having tis sharp pain.. isk..
watever!
haha.. i dowan to care y it hurts also jux let it b..
c.. no more pain!
the pain will go away one dae..

hmm woke up at 7 plus..
really hate it when my dad woke me up..
can kena heart attack... sianz eh.. haha..
niwae woke up... take a really long bath.. n feel so smooth!! wee.. hairless!
i lioke.. ahakz.. pamper myself! keke..

then log in the net.. chat here n thr.. then saw isk online...
ahakz.. gt to noe smth abt him.. keke..
miss him seh..
so long nvr hang out or meet since tt dae...
haha.. niwae he ajak me jln raya wif his colleagues..
hmm.. dunno eh.. c hw ahh...

then at ant 1 plus gg to b 2 i tink i already siap...
jux w8ing for my dad wakey then every1 go out..
haha.. well i felt aslp.. ahakz.. wif make-up all done.. n hair all well done..
when i woke up, make up still ok...
but hair..?
in a total mess..!! damn!

then ard 4 g2 i ask for forgiveness..
then the whole fam go out...

we spend the dae at my grands place..
be specific my only grandma! ahakz.. was xcited to meet all my cousins..
keke.. well was bored at 1st. then reach thr i eat my nenek's chicken curry..
waduh! lazat nye!! i lioke..
keke.. wanna eat more but ave to tgl kn org belakang ryt..
haha.. then after tt lek2 then my aunt, Cik OG cum..

she brought along her in-laws.. ahakz.. no cute guys at tt side!
ewww... hahaha..
niwae my sis n i r already hell bored! damn..
she syggested we go dwn.. walk2
ahakz.. gd idea..!!
so off we went... walk2.. nuthing to c.. damn the heels giv me blisters!!
eww... pain pain.. then we lek2 n moki..
felt odd doing tt. feel really weird..
quickly finish up my moki n we walk our walk back grands place..

then tt fam had already left.. but another fam is in thr.. i wonder who..
couldn't recall the name.. haha
then i was in my uncle's rm.. watching tv.. abt to doze off.. felt a nudge..
woke up.. n saw tt auntie smiling at me..
oh ya salam! haha.. get duit raya! wee...~~!! my bro no duit raya.. kekeke..

then my cousins came.. ahakz.. they all r sick..
kena sore eyes.. a real bad one! ahakz..
niwae tt nabilah had grown up..
nw more chatty.. n latiff, as usual so short keke...
n zafir! the handsem one... kekeke.. as usual ckp eh rmbt tk hensem ah..
quickly go mirror n check his hair...
isk! so vain seh.. then play ard wif them..
hahhaa.. kecoh..

then the sad part go home.. ahakz..
i was lyk so tired.. keke..

i guess i will move on. frm all tis... wanna forget watever bad tings tt had happen in life.. i jux had enuf.. i dont wanna feel lyk tis nimore... i tink he is moving on bit by bit.. he will get a grip on his life..
i wanna b independent! i need no one in life.. jux me n my decision.. haha.. raya also i gt resolution! hahhaa.. let it stay wif me n no one else noes... *winks*

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