I don't believe that good guys exist.
I don't believe that I deserve a good guy.
I don't believe that I can speak in Bahasa.
I don't believe that is taking place right now....
Yup.

a lot of questions building up in my mind. y me?
y he wants to be friends with me?
y is he friendly to my friends? y is he so down to earth? everyone seems to click well with him... I think. he's uber sweet and nice.

I thought it was a dream but no...
still remember the first day I saw him.
well I was late but he wasn't mad.
he was so nice that I felt so out of place... like I wasn't myself. yes. I was shy... uh-huh! believe it not. Q was shy!!! hmmm....
not only that he was so friendly that I feel so comfy with him. :)))
then on our first 'call' date he met my friends. Fad n Syima...
hmmm.. well tt sounds like a wrong move but he wasn't awkward. Fad bullied him which I did find it a lil rude but he wasn't mad or anything like I imagine... scary but true.
so was he pretending? I doubt it cos I feel like he was so sincere... I maybe wrong but yar..

after fad left, left Syima n F. me n Didi
we sort of got into a double date kind of thing. n surprisingly the guys talk!! gosh..
-__-''

a lot of questions running in my mind but i'm not trying to think about them. i'm just gonna stop those paranoid feeling n hang loose.
yes.
I will put my guards down. send my whole army for a long holiday. go with the flow n take a risk. :)
afterall, u never know what is in store for u u til u tried right?
moreover I realized that I have always put my guards on ready mode to prevent me from getting hurt.
what is love without hurt?
'love hurts'
u have to risk urself. when was the last time I do that?
seriously I forgot how it feels like to be heart broken. :)

before anything...
I apologize if he didn't keep his promise. I barely know him... Just a reminder not to hope too much pls.

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life's good so far.
life as single...
yeah!

I was complaining but now, i 'm actually loving it. ♥
no curfews, no daily reports, no unnecessary arguments, no heartbreaks.. but can't deny the fact tt I do felt lonely. Still I don't mind it all...
maybe I wasn't even ready for all this love shit. nahhh... not ready.
so love will be put aside for now. However i do wanna bitch fit about certain issues...

okay remember Papi?
ya. match make from heaven shit!!
hahhahahaha
anyways, the longer i know him the longer i realized that he is my mirror.
he is so my opposite n we r always on a diff page. yup i realized that too!
He's of my ideal height 175. botak. tattoos[bad boy image] aww... *orgasms*
but personality as i got to know him.. nahh! a total big O!
a total mat in denial... WTF!!!

I just got tired. to know guys. start all over... intro. likes. dislikes. i'm doing the same. watching movies. only diff movies la.. duhh!

watever happens shall happen.... da give up. lol. give up! give up!!! haha

current obsession: Green Tea Machiato. All thanks to Syima...

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