the world is not all about sunshine and rainbows

title: 21 = key to freedom!
date: Monday, April 30
time:14:48

firstly..
ika!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sori din turn up..
dunno ur add lh!!

n it's my bdae!!

ehem ehem..

hapi bdae to me!
hapi bdae to me!
hapi bdae to Queey!
hapi bdae to me!

*poof*
blow my bdae 'candle' jux nw..
hehe
so swit!
thank yew grrlfren!
hd a nice tym wif grrl fren n rushdi

i'm lyk so hapi lh..
aiyah!
so so so..
gonna ave a bdae bash for the bdae grrls!
kekeke

the taurus ladies!!!
kekekeke

so so..
luv u all...
thanks for the wishes!

kekekekeke

oh oh..
err.. whoever, whoever..
hapi bdae BAPAK!

hahaha
cb! sibuk share same bdae wif me!

hahaha

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title: sitting home
date: Saturday, April 28
time:21:59

b4 i type anyting...

happy 19th b'dae to Dear Aili!

hope u hd a gr8 tym at MOS tt nyte!

so MOS was ok!
thank god it's nt tt lame..
ahakz..

a gd tym dwn thr..
hahaha
i lioke ah!
i dunno hw ppl the rest noe..
but i jux stick ard Fad, Izhan n Neya.

so friday, very tired..
bn so long since i woke up late
n damn!
IT WAS HELL GD..

eylia called..
n ajak jmpa
i was tired.. n i was hell farking late..
called her again n i guess she gt pissed off..
haizz...

i still tired ahh..
bsk wanna go wedding but hw to get thr?
i ave no freaking idea sia!
hmm...
so so so
let me try cntct any1 n c hw lh!

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title: errmm
date: Wednesday, April 25
time:12:09

me gt stomach ache!

a really bad one!
aiyoh!!

lyk nk pecah my perut!

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title: :: pissed ::
date: Tuesday, April 24
time:11:27

i was freaking pissed wif mua dad.
i felt so much anger in me last nite i felt lyk leaving..
me turning 21 sn wat..

i noe it's stoopid lh..
but who cares ryt?

so feeling so mad,
i sat in the shower
run myself in cold water
have a puff..
finish my ciggies!
ahakz..

n i felt ok!

yes.. i felt better..
ahakz.. i cntrl my anger!

smth im proud of..
hehehe
my anger was worst back den..
i managed to cntrl..
i better cntrl nw or it'll b bac to square 1..
hahaha

so bdae cuming up..
6 more daes!!
ahakz..

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title: i'm in luv!
date: Monday, April 23
time:14:31

awww..
u r so perfect..
u r so gentleman..
u r so nice..
u make me fall in luv wif u..
u make me miss u..

i jux wanna b by urside
i wanna feel ur warmth
i wanna kiss ur lips..
i jux wanna njoy u by myside!

may sounds crazee
but i'm in luv!!

awwwww...
i miss him already!!

haha

wanna noe who?

a mysterious guy in my dream!

dont mind me..
jux let me feel the luv!

hahahaha

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title: 8 more daes...
date: Sunday, April 22
time:23:56

i noe i havent n updating my blog as often as b4...
hahaha
my apologies!

so wat ave bn happening?

i ave watch Wild Hogs!
a mux watch movie..
hahaha
i lioke ah!
farni!
but my crazee grrlfren wanna watch it again..
after pay dae k!

so so so..
bdae cuming up...
haha
i hate the tot tt me turning 21...
but
i luv the tot hw we r gonna celebrate it..
kekeke

hw i wish i cud go to st james!
but nvm..
sm othr tym lh..
hahaha

i jux wanna celebrate it wif my close bunch of frens..
mua darlings..
haha

the bestie, the grrl fren, the bitch, mua sissy, grrl fren sissy, grrl fren sissy bf...
i dun mind grrl fren's bitch joining though...

so so so.. i cnt w8 lh!
hahahaha

so long!

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title: ladies nyte[wed]
date: Friday, April 20
time:07:54

[wed]
i luv it!

hehehe

i njoy tt place,
i luv the rms..
i luv xploring tt place,
me n her r lyk xperts nw!

hahaha

[thur]
wrk as usual..
shit lh..
i gt tired of wrk..
i miz aunty sally n dorine..
i dislyk tt makcik kpo..
always wan to jaga my life..
ade 3 anak tk cukup ker nk jaga..
i noe lh for my own gd..
but she's way too much worst den my mom lh..
haiyah!
i noe lh i always late..
at least i din bubble wat!
ikut hati nk jer!
hmph!

todae, wrk mrng!
i gt 1 hr 26 mins to siap!
haha
later ah...
hmm... todae wat plans arr?

kk nk mandi lh!!
hahahaa

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title: tired! but luv it
date: Thursday, April 19
time:14:21

i luv last nyte!

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title:
date: Wednesday, April 18
time:13:25

my bdae list!

i wan

big rubber ducky
old hp w850i back
to go St James for my b'dae!
presents!!
testimonials!!

hahaha
i also dunno lh

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title: Quotes
date: Monday, April 16
time:12:56

SMiLE wen u're SAD,
LOVE wat u GOT
and always REMEMBER wat u HAD.

Always 4GiVE but never 4GET,
LEARN from ur mistakes but never REGRET.
Ppl CHANGE and things go WRONG,
but always remember LIFE GOES ON!

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title: monday blues
date:
time:09:36

i gt the dates jumbled up..
so i ave to wrk..
darn..
mon to fri me wrk..
Sunday wrk...

haiyah!
nvm...

wed me planning go st james
gerek gang!
hahaha...

i luv it!

i Luv it!

i LUV it!

hahaha
njoy myself tt nite..
ohh.. i wen thr sat nite lh...

hehe crazee me..
sun wrk mrng sm more...

wen thr wif eylia n her mommy...
wen thru movita...
den we lepak thr for awhile...
after tt me n eylia start our venture!
nt for ghost! but for the othr rms..
ahakz.. gerek!

starting2 lyk lost seh...
we jux walk n walk frm one rm to the othr.. n it was lyk so style ah!
hahaha
oh btw..

bye2 MOS!
ahakz..
guess wat!
st james so the many[ok ok ah] mats n minahs..
but i dunno hw cum the crowd tt me n eylia dance in was surrounded by chinese!
seriously!
but i lyk..!
n i lost my voice!

ahakz.. for singing too much lah!
hahahaha

gerek!

haha

hmmm..
btw btw!

shit lh!
i 4gt wat to type....

ohh...

14 more daes tau!!!!
ya!!

u noe to wat?

to my freaking 21!!!

believe it?
i'm turning 21!!!

sucks!

but nvm...
luk on the bright side...
21 we r young adults!
so parents cnt cntrl animore!!
wakakakaakakaka

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title: me farni...
date: Saturday, April 14
time:12:26

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

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title: mos-Trio
date:
time:11:29

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title: vivo
date:
time:10:18

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title: Another birth month-personality thinggie
date: Friday, April 13
time:12:10

-------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.
Stubborn.

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.
Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive.
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy.
Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to
bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative.
Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude.
Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able
to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves
sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

------------JUNE BABY -------------
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be
around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It
is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You
have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.
Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful.
Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody
and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary
things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions
carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations.
Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always
broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never
looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control.
kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy
to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude.
likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted.
Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates
studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect.
playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to
control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.
Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but
secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because they're one of a kind.

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...
better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic.
Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient
and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy
to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet
complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny
and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Bubbly personality. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

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title:
date: Monday, April 9
time:13:48

one of the many pics...

bestie nvr send lar!
damn u!

so niwae2, fri dey hd comp..
P.H.A.T Inc..
dey did well!
ahakz..

but...

it's ok
it's alryt
cum on P.H.A.T Inc.
Fight Fight FIGHT!

hahaha

u guys did well k!

so sat,
i hd to wrk 2nd shift..
BUT after tt i wen club!
hahahaha
crazee me..

i njoy myself!
hahaha
dance lyk crazee!
hahahahaha..

i dun favour the retro rm..
cos the mat sellehs are lyk animals...
pushing evry1...
siku-ing my head!

hahaha..
later i update the pics lh!

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title: crazee me...
date: Sunday, April 8
time:22:34

so... sat...
hd a blast!

so my FREN is nt allowed to go st james cos he's too young!
thanks yar fren!

wahahaha

so we, bestie grrl fren n i wen to mos!

we wen all rms!

the main arena, the retro, PURE! [ahakz! lepas!]
n of coz the so troublesm to get in smoove!

hahahaha

gt so many to type abt!

later ah! wif pics kk!
hahaha

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title: i cn cook!
date: Thursday, April 5
time:02:00

hahaha..

tuesday!

mua sissy have a class chalet. so i'm invited!
ahakz.. me the vip guest. wakakaka.. no lh.. dey nd sm1 to cook..
so yeah me cook. i noe.. shocked ryt!
i cn cook k!
tk stomach ache sm more!
hahahaha

well overall it was ok.. i still manage to bully sm guys dwn thr!
hahahaha i lioke! n den sekali mrng2 gt sm more ppl cum..
ila's fren.. kimak! terkejut sia!
bdk ite tp.. hahaha
i was walking towards his direction n he's walking towards mine...
n i saw him.. mcm terkejut beruk!
i u-turn bac..
dont ask me y i did tt... but it happened tt way lh!

hahaha.. n den bought bikini.. tgh2 mlm go swimming!
gt slide lar!
i lioke! hahahahahaha
fun fun!
maner ade tmpt pagi2 buta gi mandi?

but wen we saw the security we cabut! farni sia!
kelakar tgh hapi2 sekali eh security! cabut! wahahahaha

k lh ave fun!

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title: chalet!
date: Tuesday, April 3
time:13:53

yeah! chalet wif unknown pests n my sis!

thank god eylia's tagging along!

wakaka

hope i ave fun bullying the small pests!
hahhahahaha

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title: 6 weird stufz.
date:
time:02:25

6 weird stufz.

#1 wenever i walk alone i seems to b oblivious wif the ppl ard me..
even if u r one hell of a cute guy! hahaha

#2 i luv guys wif botak head n goatie!
cutie!!!

hahaha

#3 i luv mat cd..
onli their butt!
hahaha weird but true..
mat cd ave cute butts..
most of em do..
oh! i have it surveyed out wif my bitch!
waakakaka

#4 i cn b shy! hahahaha

#5 i luv french manicure! hhahahaa

#6 i luv bad boys! hahahahahaahahaahaha
but u will tend to get hurt wen u r wif em..

k i'm hell bored!

6 people to tag....

err...
1. Nad!
2. Iffa!
3. Izhan!
4. Eylia!
5. Fad?
[hahahaha w8 till u cn get internet access lh..]
6. Fana!

k lh!
nw tis is wat i call slpy!
i wanna slp already!!

nytes!

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title:
date: Monday, April 2
time:15:24

allow yourself to be loved by someone who really loves you,
rather than burden yourself with someone who doesnt appreciate being loved.....
trust me.....
been there

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title: <3's no1
date:
time:15:02

peOple dO say thAt:
fRenshiP Often eNds iN lurVe
and i tiNk that actuAlly hAppenS tO me & yOu..
yOur presEnce maKes a diFfeRence iN My Life honey!..

i gt tt frm sm stranger's profile!
wat i believe is tt..
if u really luv sm1, a fren
n u wan to take tings to the nxt level...
better tink real hard!
cos if ting nvr did wrk out..
u will ave to go thru the pain of losing sm1 so dear to u..
tings will nvr b the same lyk hw u wish it wud b..
ahakz...

milk makes me sick lar!
i realise tt after drinking another glass of milk

so conclusion!

MILK MAKES ME SICK!
wahaha

i give up on certain tings in life...
i shudn't b the one who's trying hard to make evryting work..
watever happens happens for a reason..

frankly i find u childish..
mayb u shud open up
n try luk tings at diff angles..

oh btw ex boy fren!
i'm nt the one who has bn looking for u all tis while..
who has bn looking for me..
who is the one who wanted a 2nd chance..
who is the one begging me to return to u..
who wanted to mit up..
who?

i hd bn u..
hw the hell wud i get tt num if u hd nt missed called me?

lyk wat i believe..
ppl wont change..
i believe tt..
if we hd broken up den..
it will nvr happen in future!

i no longer believe in patching tings up..
cos i believe tt patching up = REVENGE!

c! simple..
go bac to ur x so long ago x..
she die die wans u bac!

i'm njoying life being sgl!

i dowan to b held dwn.. hopefully nt nw..
insya-allah never!

i jux leave evryting to fate

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title: sick..
date:
time:12:54

i luv chicken..
but jux nw i ate black pepper chicken my mom jux ccoked i feel sicker!
arrggh!!
i m sick!

n i hate it lar!!

damn!

feel lyk wanna vomit...
i jux feel so disgusted..
i dunno it's jux tt feeling!
eww...

i really gtg.. nd to puke..

..........................................

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title: *humming* step into my world
date: Sunday, April 1
time:21:05

I ~~don't~~ smoke

I ~~don't~~ flirt

I ~~don't~~ cum bac home late

I ~~don't~~ club

I ~~don't~~ laugh

jux nw i gt scared! ahakz.. i tot i did saw the place tt i once sat at!

those who wen wif me on the 'Step into my world' incident! guess wat i found out.. my late granma's grave.. n i was lyk.. woah! mite b her singing tt nyte huh?

ohh.. btw i saw the 8 victims who died at the langkawi during the 80's grave..
b4 i was born lh! 1985 i tink!... i tink tt's y the bukit sana keras! byk batu!
hahaha

ahakz..
layz to update already! hakz!

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title: dear diary...
date:
time:19:41

Sunday has bn a tiring day for me..
wen to the cemetery..
go visiting ahakz..

so many to type but too layz lar!

kk.. gtg!

chao!

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