the world is not all about sunshine and rainbows

title:
date: Monday, November 24
time:12:54

thank u to those who ave bn thr for me..........

thanks gf.

the moment tt i almost gave up.
u were thr.
u called me up.
u miss me lyk hw i miss u.
u care!
hehehe

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title:
date: Tuesday, November 18
time:19:43

i tot sitting at hm aint gonna b so bad
but i was wrng!
i clean my rm again last nyte!
i hang my clothes!
i arrange my stuff in the boxes!
i fold my clothes neatly!
n i stayed hm.
yet...

i'm wasting electricity.
i'm nt doing niting.
i'm ave to water the plants.
i ave to wash clothes.
i ave to hangthe washing.
i ave to wash the dishes.
i ave to fold clothes.
i ave to listen to em nag.
i ave to listen to em tok crap.
i ave to listen.
i ave to fucking listen!

i stayed out.. i'm nt using much electricity ryt?
i sort of save bills.
n wen i'm at hm i cnt watch dvd.
i cnt surf net.
i cnt watch tv for long.
i cnt tok on the house fone.
i cnt tis.
i cnt tt!

i'm sick of it all.
i wanna go bac to sch
but at the same tym i'm unsure
no more late nytes.
which is gd cos i really wan to get my sleeping pattern back.
i dowan to aged too sn!
at least i ave a schedule to follow.
yes yes! i cn die jux waking up n tinking watelse ave i nt done in my life!!
and at least a life n goal to work for?

but the onli prob will b..
i avent told my parents yet
but i told my bro though.
does tt count?
haha
well.. i dunno
i tot of jux wrking for it w/o even telling em.

i.. life?

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title: .::forgive me::.
date: Monday, November 17
time:11:10

i noe i havent bn gd
i noe im nt an angel
i noe im nt perfect
i noe i fell for u
i noe i'm a flirt
i noe i'm scared to lose u
i noe i avent bn truthful
i noe i ave too many guys
i noe i'm afraid

forgive me

i was so hapi to mit ya
haha
but i dunno
mixed feelings.
i'm aving doubts
n i hate tt
once i ave doubts
precaution is always up next
wen precaution is up next
i wud b very selfish
den i wud destroy evryting
for fear of getting hurt myself
so i might as well hurt the othr party n nt me

im so afraid to fall too deep for u

gimme time k.

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title:
date: Saturday, November 15
time:19:06

bn almost two wks huh?

life?

frens?

work?

sch?

wat? sch!

yeah.
i n fad plan to take up another course.
but i ave yet to tell my mom yet abt my decision
well b4 i cud tell her, i ave to plan my timing.change my lifestyle.
lyk really change
no more parties evry wk!
parties shud b lyk on special occasion onli!
yes.
frankly, parties.. dancing.. drinks.. guys!
wow!
i love em all!
yes.

i love to high feeling.
n yeap. i din get drunk k!
unlyk sm ppl.
no names mention.
hahahahaha

work?
well kak intan luk me up.
for a very last min make up asst.
hehe
pay? gd. way better den wat i deserve.
working hrs? sux!
imagine wrk 12 hrs + + +...
hahaha
10 to 11
10.30 to 11
7.30 to 9 plus.
tk gile?
but thank god it's onli for 3 days!
haha
n if she nds me again.. she cud jux ring me up though.
hehehe

my body clock?
i kip waking up at 8 plus am evry dae nw.
n i get fed up.
y?
cos i woke up lyk in a shocked!
yeah its irritating.
but i ave to adapt to it i guess..

i dunno y i lyk u
i dunno y i miss u
...
i wan to take tings slow
i wan tings nt to end
i jux hope tt if tings were to happen
tt evryting we go thru together
...
m i rushing?
haha

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title: finally
date: Monday, November 3
time:23:37

all pics ave bn updated. go check it out in my photobucket link
ohh.. n sm pics i actually placed em in folders..
it's at the left hand side of the photobucket
eg of sm names of the folders r..
ifahs crib
rayaedit.
etc

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