the world is not all about sunshine and rainbows

title: need or want....
date: Monday, July 21
time:16:31

i luv to play tis game of nd or wan.....
especially wen i go shopping...
if gt lots of cash all i nd!
hahahaha
so i actually start using tt on my life....

lyk example..
do i nd or wan a job?
obviously i nd it..
to survive duhh....~

den i start tinking of wat ever stuff tt i ave in mind....

do i nd or wan to smoke?
i dun nd too...
but yes i always gt the urge to smoke
yes yes.. bad bad Q!

do i nd or wan to eat?
i noe i nd to eat to survive...
but i dowanna eat lyk hw i used to..
hmm.... eat in moderation?

do i nd or wan to b happi?
i wanna b hapi..
cos tt's me.. b care-free..
no probs...
taking tings on the positive side..
erm... i wanna b hapi!

do i nd or wan to lose wgt?
i do luv to b thin!
i wanna lose wgt but nw....
i felt lyk it's a core...
yes i feel tt i nd to wif all the pressure...
n the tot of me breaking promises
erm... haizz.....

do i nd or wan to love u?
ermm.... skip!

do i nd or wan to b myself?
i luv being me...
i dun nd to b me i wanna b me!
i m who i m u accept me for me...
u dun chane me for whom u wanna me to b

do i nd or wan to change my dressing?
yes i do admit tt smtyms my clothes r outrageously too 'sopan!'
nyahahaha mayb i do nd to stock up on longer skirts n pants...
but u will still c me in shorts! nyahahahahaha

do i nd or wan to b wif u....
tis question i leave it unanswered ryt nw...
my mind is so confused... onli tym cn tell...

i jux felt lyk smth is jux nt ryt

it felt so diff.
yes we do drifted apart.
nt i wanted to
BUT
i cnt trust u.
y shud i b frens wif sm1 whom i cnt trust?
y shud i actually b wasting tym here?
yes u nd to built the trust bac..
n watever
n one ting abt me tt u mite nt noe is tt
i ave a problem trying to trusting sm1 again..
yes i cn work on tt
but tt mite take wks.. mnths yrs..
well so far if i lose the trust on tt sm1 i wud jux let it go
the easiest? dun be frens wif tt person...
hahaha
cos u nvr noe if tt person cn seriously b trusted.
true?
moreover u spill the beans rgrd my secret
so yeah..
nope u get it..
n u mux understand another ting...
we r plastics.
u live in tis worls..
and aving a group of frens who r plastics.
so watever....

no names mention hor...
cheers~!

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