I don't believe that good guys exist.
I don't believe that I deserve a good guy.
I don't believe that I can speak in Bahasa.
I don't believe that is taking place right now....
Yup.

a lot of questions building up in my mind. y me?
y he wants to be friends with me?
y is he friendly to my friends? y is he so down to earth? everyone seems to click well with him... I think. he's uber sweet and nice.

I thought it was a dream but no...
still remember the first day I saw him.
well I was late but he wasn't mad.
he was so nice that I felt so out of place... like I wasn't myself. yes. I was shy... uh-huh! believe it not. Q was shy!!! hmmm....
not only that he was so friendly that I feel so comfy with him. :)))
then on our first 'call' date he met my friends. Fad n Syima...
hmmm.. well tt sounds like a wrong move but he wasn't awkward. Fad bullied him which I did find it a lil rude but he wasn't mad or anything like I imagine... scary but true.
so was he pretending? I doubt it cos I feel like he was so sincere... I maybe wrong but yar..

after fad left, left Syima n F. me n Didi
we sort of got into a double date kind of thing. n surprisingly the guys talk!! gosh..
-__-''

a lot of questions running in my mind but i'm not trying to think about them. i'm just gonna stop those paranoid feeling n hang loose.
yes.
I will put my guards down. send my whole army for a long holiday. go with the flow n take a risk. :)
afterall, u never know what is in store for u u til u tried right?
moreover I realized that I have always put my guards on ready mode to prevent me from getting hurt.
what is love without hurt?
'love hurts'
u have to risk urself. when was the last time I do that?
seriously I forgot how it feels like to be heart broken. :)

before anything...
I apologize if he didn't keep his promise. I barely know him... Just a reminder not to hope too much pls.

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